Yesterday morning I had eaten my last batch of that rice in a bowl meal that I made my mother to buy for me. We took those at home and I would just heat it in the microwave one and two days after my dialysis so that I could have that favorite food of mine even when we are away from that convenience store where we buy it.
But of course a heated rice is not that good anymore if you would eat it even if you heated it in a microwave, it is just best served newly cooked or even cold but not from a refrigerator cold. It is just I liked that convenience store food's taste and I just crave it everyday so I have to order a few so that I can enjoy it almost everyday, I had eaten the last batch yesterday.
My mother also bought for me the viand that I ate for my supper. I only had a half of it with some rice because the nauseating side-effect of Cinacalcet is still affecting my appetite. It is just a beef stew cooked in citrus juice with some soy sauce, it is supposed to be taste but due to my poor appetite I cannot just eat it all.
But now I am craving for a blanched sweet potato greens or tops. Those young and tender leaves which are really tasty if you dip it in some sauce and you eat them with some rice.
I plan to have them with some dipping sauce of fermented anchovies with some citrus juice and sliced onions. I kind of get excited when I am craving for a certain food because I tend to eat well because of that.
Actually I am just good on craving but when it is the meal time I would get easily satiated because of my appetiteloss issue.
Well it sucks when you have no appetite but you crave nonetheless and then you feel disappointed because you cannot eat normally. But that is just the compromise that I have to take because I have to continue in taking my antihyperparathyroid medicine which is called "Cinacalacet" because I have to heal my bones to stop my joints from hurting and deforming.
If only I do not have such appetite problem then my situation in life would be much more okay for me. But now that I am gaining improvements with my bones I just have to sacrifice my appetite so that I can actually be able to heal my bones.