Nov 15th, Kevin talked with a woman in his room last night. There were minor noises here and there from upstairs. I got to sleep. I woke several times briefly and got up at 8. My back tire is flat again. After I repaired it the last time, I checked it under water and carefully checked the rim and tire. I got ready and watched youtube videos while I checked my tire. Actually all of the holes could have been easily caused by tampering. Another possibility is a grain of sand in the tire, which causes needle sized holes but does not get lodged in the inner tube and continues to move freely in the tire. I did check the tires before, but I can do so again... The professor said he was having difficulties making the sound loud enough. We worked through the textbook, then took a break. I rested and helped Mariah log on to kahoot.it. It was not accepting JavaScript. [JavaScript was blocked, and I showed her how to unblock it. This meant I had loaded a website in a somewhat less secure way, which could have been distracting to me during the game.] The game involved more spelling questions, and was more difficult. [I believe this was something I was obviously struggling with.] I got second place. [The professor did not seem happy when he announced my success, suggesting he was attempting to construct a game that I would do poorly on. -3/18/20] The game ended a half an hour before the end of class, but everyone left except me. [Weird. Why? To see if I would be alone with a man? The classroom door was open. -4/2/21] I showed the professor my ASL report and asked questions about what we would do at the party. I left when class time ended. I… fixed the wheel...
Nov 16th, I woke around 2 am, and heard lots of walking upstairs around 5:30 am. I woke on and off and got up before 8. I went to the church's homeless outreach spot and waited till it was time to start before calling Madison... I waited across the street and a man asked me if they had closed or left. I pointed to some people who were going to open a soup line and said others should come soon. I asked what he was looking for precisely. He looked across the street, at his very nice watch, and walked away. I looked across and saw people hugging and setting up tarps. I went over and met Madison. She handed me something to set out. I spent most of the time folding and organizing like I do at the thrift shop. This made people happy and Madison said I was hired. Someone sobbed saying the man called her a man and she was a woman, and continued to ... ask for things. Madison looked for things for people. She also talked with some and connected... I had to go warm my toes, and afterwards worked on my research paper. In part of this paper, I talked about or quoted an ACLU paper detailing absurd degrees of guilt by association, or guilt by being the same race/nation/religion as one that has criminals... I was eating supper and watching a Major Prep video on the second most beautiful equation, and I noticed subtitles in what looked like Russian. I never set up those subtitles. I took screenshots. My father also posted a meme about how Russia is a hostile foreign government. Russian was one of the ethnicities I cited that were cast under suspicion. [Irony] I read news about Hong Kong...
Nov 17th, I woke around 4:30 and got up around 7… A song at church, "He Knows My Name." ... The guest speaker's sermon was… based on Acts 19:10-17, which was about the itinerant Jews trying to use the name of Jesus to cast out demons, but the demons didn't recognize them and tore them to pieces. The majority of the sermon emphasized we were supposed to spend time with people and get to know them like Jesus and Paul did. He also suggested we be willing to die for the one who killed our kids like Jesus would, although that level of Christ likeness is rare. Otherwise he recommended faith, prayer, and fasting. The pastor said if we were Christians, Satan already knows our name… I stepped aside to talk to Madison about the ideas I had thought about... and texted Madison my ideas. At first it said mobile data was off and didn't want to send. I turned on data and off wifi and it went through. She sent me… My response to that got through no problem, even though data was still off… Easton said Bonsior. I ate supper and watched The Good Son.
Nov 18th, I woke a few times and got up at around 7. I… took the bus to service Canada and got my SIN number and tried to make a copy of my work permit, but they only had black and white. I walked to the closest Jean Coutu, but didn't want to pay 50 cents (the other is cheaper)... I tried listening to my radio but it didn't work. I plugged my headphones into my phone and used that radio, and it did work, despite the headphones not working with the phone before. I got to class and my headphones broke. It is a wire in the case in the middle of the main wires... The professor asked for words describing culture... A girl shared dances from her culture and the professor put videos that she said represented them well on the screen. The last one was vulgar... I went back to duolingo. Mariah was sitting next to me and seemed disturbed by it. (She is a Muslim who wears a head covering, and acts like a refined lady.) Bruce left the room for a few minutes. Mariah volunteered to go next and she and Ava talked about their holidays. Bruce asked Mariah to forgive him for his question, and cavalierly asked her why she wore a head scarf and Ava didn't. His posture was fully leaned forward, facing Mariah openly, face intent, excited, gleeful, and remained so for a while. Mariah said the headscarf wasn't obligatory in Islam. Ava added it was the law in Iran. Bruce asked Mariah if she wore it at home and who she wore it around. [Mariah appeared to be targeted for the sole reason that she showed she was uncomfortable with something that went against her culture and morals. She appeared to act as an informant before and afterwards. This is an example of someone acting as an informant still not being safe from the psychopaths. Psychopaths basically have an addiction to hurting people. People may be forced to obey them for their own protection, but may be more compromised for it. It seems anyone in the group can be made to hurt anyone of their comrades at any moment.] The conversation moved on to Jack talking about a holiday going on in his country… I went to service Canada in the Guy-Favreau building, which was already closed. I found my bank, then looked for the closest Jean Coutu, which took me back around where I came. They had no copier. I found a Canada Post, and the lady said they had no color but pointed me to the Guy-Favreau building. She said next to service Canada there was a print shop. So I went back to where I came from. The man in the shop said I could not copy, but there was a professional print shop outside and to the right. That didn't make sense. After a search of printing shops on google maps, they were all pretty far. I tried the first one… The price was 70 cents and it did not print the background. The woman said that was because it keeps the document from being copied (counterfeited), but I showed her my photocopy of my brown paper, and she tried again with the same problem. I went to my bank, got a print out of transactions for October, and put my work permit and SIN paper in with my safety deposit box. I asked the bank teller to shred the extras...
Nov 19th, I woke around 6 am, heard a bang, and got up around 7:30 am... Dad sent an article on smear campaigns. I gave a lengthy response about the sin of gossip and naiveté in the church. I had a small fever and rested most of the day… Someone played loud music and kept changing the song starting around 9:50 pm. It is coming from the hall. I had been listening to the music channel while I worked.
Nov 20th, I woke around 2, then 3:30 and stayed awake. Someone's alarm went off around 4:40, and went till around 4:39. I recorded a few seconds. Someone left their room and made 5 or so loud bangs down the hall around 4:45 am. I got up around 8… and went to the thrift store. I verified with Mariam she didn't need me in the kitchen and went to help Renee. I was able to use more French, which she was happy about. She sent me to sort clothes when she didn't need me anymore. She also kept asking me if I wanted to keep or buy things. I took 1 blanket she said was trash, and said I would be interested in other blankets, but declined the other things. I did a little shopping and tried on a sports bra, during which a woman opened the curtain, though I was covered... At class I sat next to Emily and Mariah. The professor was talking about MRI and the costs with Jack… During class the professor talked about a TED talk where the woman recommends defining people's culture by their rituals, relationships, and restrictions. The professor asked what we thought and I said it was a useful way to get to know people and not stereotype. But first he asked us to write what we were planning to present on Friday. I helped Emily and asked Mariah and Ava their opinions. After reading part of the woman's lecture, the professor asked us to write our own routines and relationships. The screen said to do so as honestly as possible [underlined]. I wrote relationships from my past. He looked at mine and asked if they were still relevant. [There was an over-the-top grab at personal information during most of this class: health, home, habits, routines, relationships, etc. It was not good to ask immigrants in a compromised position in society to hand all of that over. I had spoken to the professor about it to some degree, but it was characteristic of the class and textbook.] He laughed that I wrote less corruption was a restriction for politicians in Canada. He talked to Mariah about DUI laws. Then began presenting his own list. He talked about his routine, taxes, holidays, and dismissed class. We are to share our routines and relationships with the class tomorrow. Emily also asked me during class how many minutes it took me to get home by bus, and what time I go to bed... I did the 2 translations to the songs I am thinking about doing and corrected my ASL paper. I was going to put it on the USB stick I used to print, but that was not in it's pocket. [That USB stick never showed up. I had used it I believe at the BAnQ library last. I don't tend to lose things like that. I check over areas that I leave regularly to make sure I got everything.] I looked through my bag and did not see it. This is the third thing I found out of place today. My radio was not in my red bag this morning and my battery was in my coat pocket. I recently watched one or two videos from the 40s-50s talking about the importance of being orderly. [It would be characteristic of them to get ideas to bother people from the immediate environment.] ... In front of my building a police car was parked. At the top of the stairs, there was a cop who said hi. I looked and at a table in the dark with a flashlight? was another cop sitting with Kevin my neighbor. I returned to my room and straightened it. [When I wasn't cozying up with Kevin, it allowed for another way to frame me. There is no surveillance for the hall between Kevin's and my room, and he very much likes to leave his door open. That is means for me to enter his room when he is away. If I act like I don't like him for some reason, that can be painted as malice. So if Kevin complains that he has been stolen from, or had his room otherwise bothered, that automatically makes me a potential suspect. This is one of the ways I may be threatened. I had heard him complain about missing something. -4/2/21]
Nov 21, It was cold last night. I woke around 6 and got up around 8... When I left the library computer I realised I didn't have my black knit hat. I found it at lost and found. [I would have locked my screen when I got up to add money or print. There would not have been much time from me leaving my chair to discovering my hat missing. So most likely someone brought it to lost and found while I got up for a moment.] I went to class and talked to Emily... I may have been insulting when I asked her if she understood a little. The professor wrote words describing activities and relationships. During the break, I did duolingo. I looked up how to say Taco in ASL, then Emily left the room, and came back when class started. [I had hoped to heal any offense I gave by sharing something about something she was good at, which was cooking.] The professor talked about restrictions in countries. Several people talked during class. The professor said he had to leave in a half an hour to get his kids... At the end, Emily asked me why class was over. I explained, and showed her how to sign chicken taco. I took the bus and walked to the library. I was quickly booted off the computer as there was a reservation. I reserved the computer next to it, and practiced sign language while I waited. There were several computers reserved that no one took. Nolan came and tried to get on the one I was on. He eventually did. He talked to me for a while before I logged on, asking me if I knew where the other library was... He told me about BAnQ and how they will let you use a tablet for hours. He also complained Easton wanted the surveillance equipment in his room. He thought Easton could stalk us and know when we weren't in our rooms so he could break in. He said he texted Claire anything Easton did would be on her. He suggested Easton would be working with a bunch of people living in the basement, and that the bunch of bikes in the backyard were owned by one person except two. Nolan asked me to tell him if I saw anything about Easton. I said I didn't want to get in the middle. He said to tell him if it benefitted me. I typed journal notes through yesterday. Nolan asked me if I was writing a book before he left... On my street I saw a guy move what looked like a string. He was wearing a black hoodie standing between a building and the passenger side of a car. I kept looking and he was just standing there. I thought it was suspicious. Then I saw a piece of plywood on the road like someone used it for traction over the snow. I moved it and made supper. I listened to the TED talk the professor asked us to watch. As I was getting ready for bed, Kevin knocked on the bathroom door...