Stuck in the future

I was checking steemd.com a few minutes ago to see what's new with my account and found that I hit a round number of days spent on the platform. 170 to be exact. When looking back at the month of February when I started my experience as a blogger on Steemit it feels like I am doing this forever. It's like I know you before Facebook and Instagram were draining my battery for nothing.

But when I look at some of the old users and see their tag with member since 2016 I feel like a baby and I was always wondering how did it work back then. How crowded the place was, how many posts a day would someone average, how many upvotes would that average guy get and what was the interaction like. I guess I'll never know that. Yeah, you can't take back time and you can't fully understand anything except from your direct experience.

When looking at my direct experience though I feel like I am sweating my ass on a running band just in the same place I jumped in six months ago. Still average. Still getting 1-2 Steem max per post, still a few comments per post, still a resteem once in a while. Nothing fancy, nothing dream like, nothing I've imagined at the end of winter when everything was hyped. In the middle of these thoughts arises THE question though: it was that difficult in 2016 also to grow your account or it's just that we're too many mouths for just few hands to feed?

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The price of Steem on the other hand is much higher now than it was in 2016. It's actually four times higher so I'm being valued at around 4-8 Steem in upvotes per post for that price. I remember reading quite a few posts in which old folks were talking about being harder and harder to mine Steem with every year, but I refused to believe that the same I refused to believe that I bought cryptocurrencies at the wrong point in time, in December. What can I say, I'm stubbornly stupid sometimes. So, what's holding me on a low profile besides that stupidity?

Definitely me. Not gonna blame someone else, not gonna accuse some reward pool rapist or the system. That's what my posts are worth and that's what I get out of them. Period. But damn, how I would like to have joined the platform two years ago. When there was hope and trust instead of disappointment and accusations, when there was actual interactions instead of commenting for upvotes, when there were probably no bid bots and almost the same rewards pool for less users, humans or not.

At the same time I am thinking what would a future user in 2020 write if he gets down to this type of thinking like my current one. He will probably say man I wish I knew about Steemit two years ago when the damn coin was just a few dollars and one could earn a few tokens a day easier than now. Bottom line and moral of the story is that no matter where you are and where you came from you'll never be satisfied with what you have. The apples are always sweeter in the neighbors garden and there's always something to regret if you got nothing else better to do.

Now, that was just an evening freewrite inspired by the current market cap that we have and the overall sentiment on cryptos so don't take it too serious. It's temporary. I would like to hear though your story about Steemit, how it was back in the days, if you were born that long ago as a Steemian and what's now that different when comparing ages.

Thanks for your attention,
Ace