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She didn't see it coming, there were no signs, no indications, there wasn't even a history of it genetically. Somehow it feels unfair, very unfair. Its not like she had indulged herself in unhealthy foods, she has been very careful instead, yet it still happenned. The doctor said it might be stress, the root of cancer can never be found anyway and most often than not it comes to the calling of our mind.
Maybe she should be feeling thankful instead, at least they found it when she is still on stage two which makes healing it a little easier. That doesn't mean she likes being kept in the hospital, have her breast cut off and nearly a withering leaf by how skinny she has become. She felt ugly.
It was spring when they found out and now in the middle of summer she was still in this baby blue room, looking at the outside world through the glass window. She felt liek a fish kept inside of the aquarium. The lady beside her suffers teh same thing, except it is on her bones and somethimes she couldn't help but stare at the other just to feel a tad bit better. It sound mean, she knows.
Reaching out for her phone, she scrolled through her texts and saw that her friends wasn't as active as they were, she couldn't blame them, they must be tired listening to her self pitying herself. If only she could smile with full of energy like some people, smile with full of hope. She knows she is being awfully negative, but it is hard not to be. She had learnt that she was and still is a negative thinking person and as much as she tried, it just seems diffficult not to be. The cancer has not only been eating her body but also her mind.
This is such a depressing post, to be honest I have been feeling under the water these few days but I didn't think that my comeback to freewrite writting would be writing something negative ahahaha.....
Just yesterday I feel like as if there aren't anything for me to do in this world and why should I continue it when I'm not doing well. Compared to others, I am still doing pretty good. I mean, at least I still have a job, my mum still have a job, we still manage to afford rent and I can still manage my GERD and anxiety, but sometimes it feels like I can't get away from this slump.
I'm sorry if reading this makes you feel uncomfortable.
the truth is sad that you feel this way, you are good at writing and you know perfectly transmit the emotions through the text, that you achieve that people feel empathy when reading you is wonderful, maybe that is a purpose for which to leave so much negativity, good luck!!
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Do something that interests you. Maybe that would help.
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Nice post!
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doing something helps negativity to gone.
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turn your negativity to something good.
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it's good that you can at least write what you feel and do not stay with that energy inside
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there are times when we feel like hating things as they came, yet it's still a choice to be happy in some more other things.
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Very excellent post i like this kind of post thanks for share with us.
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Very excellent
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I can relate to this, one thing I can suggest is the use of CBD oil, this is known to help with feelings of depression and anxiety and it is worth researching. If it is something of interest, I am more than happy to share my knowledge with you.
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Think.. be positive always!
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upvoted this lovely post.
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something that interests you. you are good at writing.
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This reminds me of my aunt who died of breast cancer a year ago. It was sad but it just left us one lesson - early detection and prevention is the cure. Cheers! I still believe that life is still awesome for all of us people! Have a good one!
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Yes, we should be happy when usual things go well. Do I have a job but it is boring me? Fine,somebody doesn't have any income and solves more important problems. Am I healthy? I should thank to God.
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Nice blog post.
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If anything, I want to hear more of her story; her background, her life? It sounds like the prologue to something, actually. I'm no writer by trade, but I can get something off real quick if I need to. keep it up, I would highly advise.
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You have to put more effort in what you are doing that you still have ambition for
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