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The hunger of the clowns grows. They have those painted-on smiles.

No, wait, that's just their faces.

I'm told that would be scarier, but honestly, it's the make-up that's scarier. They're choosing to look that way. It doesn't freak me out if that's just how someone looks. But to change yourself?

Well, to each their own, but must we capitulate to the demands of the status quo?

Can I brag on me for a little before I get down on myself? I have a great hunger for my career. First, the bragging. Tomorrow I have a callback. I know I'm good. And I'm shooting something on Wednesday. Full week. And I have a CSz show on Friday. Heck yeah.

Now, a little humility. The idea of going out and bugging someone who doesn't really want to be bugged takes all the air out of me. My agent has suggested, and I'm sure she's right, that I might be getting more auditions if I just dropped in on casting director offices to hand them my headshot and resume and chat for a second.

I'm afraid to do this. Not least of all because, as much as I like figuring out how and what to do IN the job, "just chit-chatting" is not in my list of skillz. But also because I feel like I'm taking someone's time. Like I'm bugging them, because it's disingenuous, innit? I'm not really interested in anything but what they can do to get me a job. Sigh. Sigh. Nothing ventured nothing gained.

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Right there with you on the not going out and bugging people. I hate to do it on the phone or even over email. But as a freelancer I need to do that once in a while to get business. Totally out of my comfort zone.

But maybe think of those conversations as the audition? A change in your point of view can make all the difference - wishing you luck on your call back!

But, in an audition, they've said, "yes, please come talk to us." That's the big difference to me.

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I am so glad you wrote this. I thought of doing a post yesterday and did a little writing..haven't posted yet .. I may now..lol

This is crazy you are not taking anyone's time.. the same thing happened in my head and I refused to see Mother Theresa...true story.. I may post it now..lol
resteeming, following, nice to meet you.. saw your name in Steem Terminal... you are offering to help get newbies started.. :P

It's true! Thanks for stopping by!

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sure no problem.. your post prompted me to do mine .. just posted..
Have a wonderful day.. much success to you

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