I understand your level of fuckitedness. I too have gone through stages of fuckit. Some people don't get it, but fuck it right? You have a right to be you, as angry as that may be, or as sarcastic, or as offensive, whatever, fuck it. And the court battle, totally get that. I have lost contact with my kids now as I spent a year in jail (I go to trial Oct 30th for wearing a mask in public) and I was overseas in Iraq when she moved away, but fuck it, my kids will reach out one day. And so will yours. Keep your head up and don't let the fuck it bug get to you too much. Because "fuck it" can end up fucking you. Cheers mate.