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Aug 8th, I put on earplugs before going to sleep and went to bed early. I woke up at 3:44 am when I may have taken the ear plugs out, and then at 5:05 am. There wasn't noise early in the morning, but some after 5. I went to the construction site. Ibrahim (?) was my supervisor today. He forgot my name about three times. Another girl kept complimenting me, saying I was better than her, etc. [It seemed to me they were testing my ego, both hurting and flattering it. -3/24/21] ...He asked everyone if it made sense to end at noon. Everyone was okay with that. Ibrahim mentioned a tiny house they were building and I talked to him a little about that. ...
Aug 9th, (Continued from yesterday) I came back and did dishes. Lucas popped in and introduced "agent Luis." Jase said hi. I went to bed early, cut an earplug in half and used that. I woke up a little after 1 and before 3. I was awake around 6:20 am ish and officially woke up at 7 am. I continued reading... I had posted a good article on narcissistic abuse and gaslighting last night. My dad gave a sad emoji, and my mom said she had never seen that movie. I posted today how these abuses were so common, so severe, and so poorly understood, said it could be life or death, happiness or psychological destruction to know or not know this. … I made my food and Ellie called after me and told me she sells toiletries and makeup for cheap, and to come to her room to buy them. Lucas was by the mail and pointed to my shirt. I think he made some comment about magicians. I am wearing my Beijing shirt. Going to a meeting for French placement I ate two ramens and a can of mushroom soup and ran to the bus stop. When I arrived my stomach was upset. I went to the women's bathroom I had been to before but a line was forming. I asked the guard for directions ... and found a bathroom to stop at there. I found the street, then found the number. I stopped to ask one woman, who completely ignored me. I moved to the guy beside her who seemed idk idc, and Google maps was not specific enough. My battery said it was dying at 15%. It was about 30% when I left, and I had it on airplane mode. A man who looked like he worked there very kindly gave me directions. I didn't see the room number on the map on the wall. I tried calling them and got no answer. It was about a minute before my appointment. I saw stairs, ran up, followed signs, and got to the waiting room. The woman told me it would be a minute and to take a seat. …
Aug 10th, I woke up around 3:45 and stayed awake for a little while. There were no discernible noises from upstairs. I kept my earplugs in... The government check Raelynn sent me came in. … Ellie offered me tampons and asked if I don’t use those. She said the church ... gives things out to low income people. I told her I bought a bunch of food and she could have some, but she declined. Jase came in, and was listening to music and energetic, but not making much sense. Lucas said I messed him up and Jase said I was his sister, and that we were both from America. ... As I was cleaning up Jase said "You are my sister" and picked up some of the food I spilled on the counter and threw it away. ... I did the dishes and Igor showed up and asked if the noise was better. I said it was, and he said what do you mean, I wasn't there! I tried to confirm what days he was gone, and he said Monday through Saturday, and sometimes Sunday. He is a driver, and he goes to the US. The woman who was speaking with Easton at the table came in to do dishes and smiled at me. [It was like Igor said I was hearing things I couldn't have, and gave this girl the idea I hallucinate, and she has this knowing smile. -3/24/21]
Aug 11th, I woke up at 3:24 am, and again at around 5:24 am when something hit my ceiling. I successfully recorded the noise, and went back to sleep at 6:00 am - 9:00 am. …
Aug 12th, I woke up at 2:24 am, 4:07 am, after 5, and finally 6. Not due to noise. I rested on my trip to the charity store. Charlotte, the manager of another store, and Jesse were sitting in the parking lot, talking. Charlotte tells me 5 more minutes, it's still locked. I eat an apple and start to read. Then she gets her keys and opens the door. She has a lot of trouble finding my sign in sheet. I have completed the page, and have worked 65 hours at this location so far. I put my bag in the locker and ask Charlotte what work there is to do. She says she hasn't found Arthur's instructions, and said to just clean. Arthur would be here by 10 am. I saw Jesse in the ladies bathroom. There is something wrong with the men's room. I found a broom. Saul was in the break room. It was 8:18. He said hello and asked how I was, like he was expecting an extended conversation. I answered smiling as I headed to work. I swept the whole floor and under the shelves. 10 am arrived. No Arthur and I didn't see anyone take a break. I took the initiative to start organizing another section, putting like products together. I kept working on that the rest of the day and made huge progress. A man who looked like he was homeless came in. He showed me a trash bag with food and things inside, and asked if he could put it behind the counter. I wasn’t sure. I asked Ruby, and she said it was okay. The man was in the area I was working for quite a while, picking up and looking at most things on the shelf. Then he left. I had read a story about Hepatitis A probably a day before. Lots of people were coughing on the bus this morning. I heard Scott schmoozing a customer, telling her how amazing this store was. The customer came near where I was working and said something I don’t remember. I brushed my hand against my nose to stop an itch. [She seemed alarmed when I touched my nose. I guess she had expected the credible threat of bioterrorism I was just given would have made me more careful. -3/24/21] She asked... where she could clean her hands. I pointed to the bathroom. She said she was going to do that now. … Arthur never showed up. No one seemed to be taking a lunch break. I told Ruby at 1 pm I was going to take one. I ate my food alone and used the last 15 minutes of lunch break to ask people to write me letters of recommendation. I asked Jesse first, who readily wrote it. I said one or two sentences, good or bad, of what it is like to work with me and does he think an employer should hire me. Ruby came in and she wrote one for me as well. I asked Saul but he said maybe, and that he would have it for me by the end of the day. I asked Charlotte and she told me Madeline makes very nice recommendation letters. I said I would follow up on that and waited for her. She asked me to give her a minute and she wrote out a longer note with her contact info. I worked till 3:30 pm when someone realized my time was up. I signed out and Ruby asked if I would be here next Monday. I said I could. I got my bag and changed, and went to Saul. He asked me to write down what he said. I read it back to him, and he signed his name. He asked if this meant I wasn't coming back. I said I would be there next Monday, and I loved working here, but I had to do this to try to get a job. There was a Hispanic man I don't recognize who said hi in a flirtatious way as he passed. Saul said he would be happy if that helped me get a job. The person I neglected to ask was Scott, who today asked me if what I was doing was the American way, that I was so focused, it was great.
August 13, ... I ate a lot of food and relaxed. I felt a bit overheated. I got a text from Lucky Mobile saying they were working on a network wide way to block spam and fraudulent callers. Given that I am about to look for work, this may present a problem for me to receive call backs.
I went to bed at 9:30 pm and woke up at 2:47 am from noises upstairs. (Recorded at 2 minutes) My bathroom floor is not a wreck since I last cleaned it and I haven't heard my neighbor use it since at least Friday. On August 8th, I got multiples of the same email from my bank thanking me for changing my address.
August 14th, ... I got an email from Madeline saying she could only give me the hours I worked, no letter of recommendation. I did see online there was a volunteer position she was offering a letter of recommendation for. She said she was "not allowed." I researched more on narcissists, and my internet flaked out. ... Earlier in the day, around 12:00 pm I got a dizzy spell and opened my door for fresh air. I walked and bused to the bank to transfer my funds. The woman told me I did not have a US Canada transition account, and then kept referring to it as my US account. I was able to clear things up. I walked to the library from there and typed in journal notes from mid April to mid June. I also typed up notes on Aug 6th which is where Lucas characterized this place as a psychiatric ward. I looked at the comments on a story on Facebook about trauma and the brain, and heard some moving around above me... At around 11 pm I did hear a little from upstairs, but there was a succession of bangs coming from downstairs. I do not believe the direction can be understood on the recording. [This is plausible deniability. Since I was able to successfully record the sound, that means I wasn’t hearing things from Igor’s room. They have come up with another reason why I heard the noises, so their presence upstairs can remain hidden. -3/16/20] I woke up after 5 hours... at around 4:20 am from banging somewhere in the building. It sounded like it was coming from downstairs somewhere, and there was a man shouting angrily as loud as he could. This persisted until about when the sun came up. I heard Ellie knocking on someone's door on this level, but it didn't seem like that person answered. I got up around 8 am and wrote in my journal. I listened to a good cover of Katie Perry's Dark Horse which was glitching a bit. [The song by Katy Perry is an invitation to a relationship. It is often the case that anything I enjoy listening to is taken to be something I want to tell Brian, and here he seems to be trying to figure out if that music video was meant for him. -3/6/20] ... On reddit, one of the first stories was “What would you like to clear up with the FBI agent watching you?” and later on the question why bank transfers have to be so hard...
Facebook wouldn't let me post the cute dog because others had banned that image as offensive. … I transferred another $x to my account. ... I did dishes and made supper and Nolan kept trying to give me food. Even when I said no thank you, he brought out an unopened ranch to give me, as well as another dish. I still declined. ...