After looking down upon every post seeking advice on reddit, fate has brought me to Reddits door.
Without delving into too much details, here is the scenario. I 30M and my GF (28F) have been in a relationship for over 3 years. Started in India, moved to a different country and continued. Most of our friends here are common friends. Currently living together. She is a very emotional person. She hates being alone and needs someone to talk to regularly. She is very attached to her family. I am quite the opposite, very introverted, can survive off of just wifi and food without interaction easily. Not really attached to anything. For the past 1 year, we have been arguing a lot. Mostly it boils down to me not being romantic towards her/ giving priority to work. Her complaints are true. I am not very romantic, have never been. But I do try to go out of my comfort zone, get her flowers/make her feel special, very rarely. But that does not meet her expectations.
Recently we told both our family about our relationship to take it to marriage. My family don't support it, hers does. Lately, I have been having doubts whether to continue this. I do care about her deeply, but I don't know if I love her. I forgot how I used to love her. I tried ending things sometime before, she got very emotional, crying, tearing every memory of ours. During her previous relationship she had an episode of cutting her hands lightly. I keep wondering if it is like this now, how will it be later. I kept going thinking it's already this deep, it will be alright. Now I feel it's better to end it than let it rot and take our sanity. I am scared how she will react. She is alone here, without family, or any friend that is not my friend.