At the age of 32, nothing has been accomplished, how can I change my decadent state?

Writer Sanmao once answered a similar question. Every time I feel lost, doubt myself, and envy those people who are good at social skills, successful at work and career, and who are bright and bright outside are disappointed and disgusted with me, and when I am very depressed, I will find out and read them. First read.
It is excerpted below, I hope it can help the subject a little bit. A girl sends a letter to ask Sanmao
"I am twenty-nine years old, unmarried, and a clerk at the lowest level of a customs brokerage firm. I often return to my rented dormitory after get off work. Facing a life that is quite poor in material and spirit, I feel that the value of life is very... ….
I'm sorry, my bleak mood cannot be expressed in words. I am very inferior, please tell me, what is the ultimate purpose of life?
With such a humble person (my appearance is too ordinary), my work ability is also limited, I can't say that I have any special interests, and I have never been interested in the opposite sex.
I really envy you, I wish I could live like you, but unfortunately I can't, please write more books for me to read to enrich my life, otherwise, I really don't know what happiness is there in life? "
Sanmao replied to her unhappy girl like this: From your short self-introduction, it seems very shocking, twenty-nine years old is just young, and actually used a series of things - the lowest level, poverty, bleak, inferiority complex, Ordinary, humble, and limited are many incorrect definitions to describe myself. From my personal experience, I have also pondered many times, what is the meaning and ultimate purpose of life, but at present my answer is only one, very simple one, that is "seek true freedom", and then enjoy life.
Unhappy girl, your mind is not free, right? Of course, I have not achieved absolute transcendence, but I no longer use the words in your letter, although we are similar in comparison. If I were you, the first thing I would do is to increase my expectations and values ​​for myself, to sweep away the strings of self-abasement words in the letter from my life, and never despise myself again. You have a legitimate career, you can afford to rent a room, you look good, and you know how to further explore the meaning of life after commuting. These are all very beautiful things. Why do you feel humble? You feel humbled because you do not look at yourself with your own subjective eyes, but use the general utilitarian view of society, which is very regrettable. A person who does not appreciate himself is difficult to be happy. Of course, from your letter, it's easy to see some of your feelings. Your ability to express is not weak. From your words, you can clearly see the helplessness and sadness of an urban single woman for life. It's not superficial, it's worth paying attention to. Practically speaking, let's not talk about the illusory method, if I lived in what you call a "room", if it were me, the first thing I would do is to decorate my room. I will paint the room into bright white, make myself a beautiful curtain on the window, put an ordinary small radio at the head of the bed, make a bookshelf in the corner, and replace the light bulb with a warm and warm lampshade, Then, I went to the flower market, carefully selected a few pots and looked at the beautiful bonsai, and placed them in my window. If I still have money left, I'll go buy some reproductions of famous paintings - poster-like ones, and hang them on the wall... .
If you do it this way, according to my estimate, it will not exceed NT$4,000. Of course, except for the radio, if you do everything yourself, you will save the cost of craftsmen, and life will be much more interesting. A beautifully furnished room is the first step to enjoying life's changing mood, and for me it's no longer a closet. And then, when I get paid - if I were you, I'd spend very little money on myself for a beautiful and functional piece of clothing. If I feel that my mood is not cheerful enough, I will probably go to a hair salon and spend NT$100 to trim my hair that has not changed all the year round, and change the look to give myself a refreshing feeling of happiness. I'll pick out a few pastel shades of makeup for myself, or buy a new pair of shoes the month after another paycheck. Of course, the salary is still paid every month, and there are four or five hours of free time after get off work. At that time, I may go to the Youth Association to sign up for Chinese, flower arrangement or other courses of interest. Two classes are another way to change the environment and enrich yourself. You see, if I were you, I would slowly change. I go to class and maybe make some friends. Since my small room is so beautiful, maybe I can invite friends to sit and talk about their lives and dreams occasionally. Gradually, I am no longer so inferior, I have the courage to contact kind and virtuous people (there are still many such people in society), I will find that everyone is ordinary - but beautiful, just like myself . I will find out that a beautiful life can be achieved without much money. I no longer care about whether the opposite sex is not interested in me, because my own life is enriched bit by bit, and it is too late to enjoy myself. Do you still think so much? If I were you, I would no longer wait for Sanmao to publish a new book, I would write my own notes and write them for my own appreciation, and I would gradually realize that my own writing also has style and interest. I am really a lovely woman. Unhappy girl, please take action! Don't depend on others to make you happy. You go to set up the room first, and force yourself to do it, you will find that things are not as difficult as you think, and you can seek interest, try things out, and as long as you think you like it, cultivate it and become a After-get off work pastime. However, I still feel that the deepest joy in this world is to help others, not just to enjoy myself in the world of myself - of course, it is also important to enjoy my own life. You first imagine yourself to be someone else, help yourself build up your confidence, make up your mind to change your current way of life, make yourself lively, don’t let your life do the loss and sadness, at least you have to give it a try and do your best. Give it a try, will you? There are many ways to enjoy life. The problem is that you have to take action, you can't just dream. Next time you write to me, the girl with the happy signature, will you delete that "no"? Your friend Sanmao has a long article, thank you for reading it. I hope that Sanmao's words can bring you even a little warmth. In fact, most of us are ordinary people. You are only 32 years old. Many things can still be changed, even if it is just to change your interior decoration and environment. Change your mood. This month is coming to an end, I wish you all the best, and all your wishes come true soon. Finally send you a little sun.
By the way, let me give you one of my favorite passages, I hope it can help you.
New York time is three hours ahead of California time, but California time is not slower. Someone graduated at 22, but waited five years to find a good job! Someone became a CEO at 25 and died at 50. There are also people who become CEOs as late as 50 and live to be 90. Some are still single, while others are married. Obama will retire at 55, and Trump won't be president until 70. Everyone in the world has their own development time zone. Some people around you seem to be walking ahead of you, and some people seem to be walking behind you. But actually everyone has their own pace in their own time zone. Don't be jealous or laugh at them. They're all in their own time zone, and so are you! Life is all about waiting for the right moment to act. So, take it easy. You are not behind. You are not ahead. In your own time zone that fate has arranged for you, everything is on time. In the end, always sunny, always blooming, always happy.
I hope that you, dear ones who read this text, can also be successful in everything. The text itself is cold, but if it warms you, then it is meaningful. We are just ordinary people among the common people, and our lives are not very different. Each of us has our own troubles and inhumaneness. It is also insincere. Sometimes we may not be able to change others or change the environment. The only thing we can do is to change the environment or change our mentality. I hope everyone can laugh a lot, and good luck will come naturally. You have what you want, and you can let go of what you don't get.