I didn't start with Nothing
For a fact I had Everything.
All I could ever want,
All I could ever need,
Or so I thought.
Then came everything
Crumbling down before my very eyes.
All of it, all Gone.
Nothing was left,
I mean, not a thing.
In the place of nothing I whaled,
Cried, cursed, and whaled some more.
For a while, that was all I could do,
loathe myself, loathe my life, and loathe everyone in it.
Oh, how the mighty had fallen.
But, in Nothingness, I heard it.
In Nothingness, I felt the ever still voice calling out to me.
Whispering an untold love I had never known.
Directly to my heart and it registered.
Even in the place of Nothing, where I was too wretched to be loved, He LOVED me all the more.
That even in the place of nothing, where all I had was nothing, I had all I could ever ask for;
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
Love only a single being is capable of giving.
Love only experiential knowledge could make me understand.
Love, I didn't and would never deserve in a thousand lifetimes.
The love I had always had but could neither appreciate partly nor in its entirety.
In the place of Nothing,
After all the execration for all that was,
I found ABBA.
I discovered how much he had given up for me and given to me.
That's when I realized the greatest gift I had been given at that point, was the gift of Nothing.
Now because of Nothing,
I have experienced God
As my comforter
As my Strength,
As my Fortress
As my Deliverer
As my provider and
As my Protector.
The reality of God's Paternity dawned on me,
In the place of Nothing.
Now I know nothing was a gift.
One of the best to say the least.
Thank you Father for the Gift of Nothing.