Dear Diary: Today My Mother Will Going To Submit My Lab Result To My Doctor And I Am Scared What The Doctor Will Tell

My mother will be the only one who is going to my endocrinologist today because there is no need for me to go for my consultation ass my doctor only needs to see my IPTH result. I am worried now and I am expecting for her to adjust my dosage to some degree that it will be unbearable for me both physically and financially to sustain it so I am scared now.

I also see my doctor to have no belief in my disposition to undergo a parathyroidectomy probably because of my dreaded appearance. Some doctors or even most people including my family just had given up on me, some a long time ago and others the moment they had seen me. So it is just not going to work if people around me won't even try.

If I won't adjust y dosage my parathyroid will continue to ravage my bones and I will soon suffer the effects of bone hunger like a further backbone deformity, the enlargement of my head, difficulty in breathing, fractures, and of course pain which are all happening now but slowly bring me down.

I just have to risk my life with that surgery or I won't see an improvement in my overall health and I am just so thankful that eventhough I still have an aboral parathyroid secretion my medicine has made e feel way better than before. I just needed some more prayers so I could have the good fate and wisdom to know what to do.