Yea, happy days are here! Cannot break pace! Ever have the guts to write off all of your friends. The whole lot of them stuck in a drug hazed anti-social social circle. I have standards. There is a common haze dialogue between these friends that I don't want to be a part of. Makes me uncomfortable. They talk like life is a game as an excuse to do drugs. Acting like your body and your brain is just a play toy. Sad and pathetic , no really
If one of them even mentions the word acid it makes me sick. Had to let them know if drug talk is all ya do, that aint cool. That's a fake relationship. It's simple - people do drugs out of boredom. No matter what other excuse they try to paint it as. They would say don't cha ever say fuck it so you can have fun and party? NO! That kinda talk is unlistenable! If I were to give them a pat on the back for their drug abuse that would make me an enabler! I refuse. I know people who wreaked their lives and even died from heroin or meth. Then I hear these ravers talk and use the same sorts of arguments to justify their own use. Screw it!!!
One of the girls in our social circle had a friend who o.d.'d and died! Even after something as tragic as that they still go on about acid and other drugs like it's so cool. That's so fucking depressing. They say that life is a game. The guy that died was playing that game - Russian roulette...and lost. That's not my kinda fun at all. It makes me want to torture them a bit - not to get off - but to see if they actually feel any pain. I have never seen them cry. I don't like that goof attitude where they say life is a game, drugs are cool shit and try to defend against my assesments with personal attacks saying I'm a hypocrite for smoking cigarettes and weed - sorry pals but that's not the same thing as coke, acid and ketamin. Still I enjoy acid, but I never glorify it or try to haze others into thinking it's cool
Yea the biggest downer is that death trip some of these people are on. Like they don't know how to care about anything and have no core values. I hear statements like it's the end of the world so just have another beer. Great! Now I have no one to talk to. They don't understand that the party attitude is a form of sabotage. If I were to start to go out and do coke every week and try to sleep with people I'd be done! I'd be fucked. My dreams would be shattered. So am I to say to them sorry, yeah I'm a hypocrite for smoking cigarettes and drinking beer so fuck it might as well do coke and acid whenever possible, who cares, life sucks. They are so right I lost the game of life, they won! They got high more times than me, had more orgasms then me!! Wowee they are so fucking awesome and cool, I just gotta be like them so I feel accepted. Even though we all know a relationship with people around drugs it fake and absolute masturbation.
Well that's my rant on for tonight. I feel great ya know! That's why I can't let that kid shit from others interfere. It is a form of betrayal of how much real fun we could all be having together right now. Nope drug talk was too important. That's too bad. Wouldn't be surprised if the one pal tries to comment on this blog to try to defend himself. But I'm not worried. I don't want to fight. I've got better things to worry about. I'm glad I've come to myself. It's not to be negative....just can't put up with the bullshit any longer. It's not worth it...potential is too great for awesomeness. Alright excited for tomorrow! I should write some more, make more art and may even have some sounds to share!!
