Every thought of her mother, Nina always felt like the most miserable woman in the world. That morning was not a bright morning, a white cloud turned black, a hiss of wind blowing hard and no sooner the roar of water followed. When awakened from sleep again Nina feeling is not good. The family photo hanging on the gray wall instantly reminded her of her mother's words a few days ago. Never mind in her mind to corner her mother's opinion. At the age of twenty-eight this year it is natural Nina to build a new life in a different ark. This time is not like most women her age who think of married life. She prefers to do what is not like his dark days.
"Do you forget this is four years Nina". The faint eyes made Nina shocked. How Nina realized her mother was full of worries. Nina wanted to look back at the faint eyes and explain that she was in good shape. The eyes are like screaming. Nina could not look at her mother. She grabbed the hand of the middle-aged woman, the hand that always tried to wipe her grief since she was born in this world. "Mom's mother said yesterday, I still can not do it." Nina bowed her regret. "Mother understands that this affection must be very difficult, but can you not think about it anymore?" Although looks very sad face still bring a smile for Nina. It was like the rain that had arrived at the end of the drought. There is no word that can be spoken again or actions that Nina can offer to her mother in addition to warm hugs and seductive sweeps. Not saying much that morning Nina decided to go to work to take donut cakes to give to some customers.
On top of the two-wheeled machine that was a silent witness of Nina's despair almost every day after four years ago, Nina always struggled against the angst within her. For her the incident four years ago was an experience he would never forget. Now, however, she is always thinking how to make the experience not a history in her life. At least by working she will at least forget the heartbreaking problem and she can get results that she can use to survive.
"Madam do you want to buy my donut?" While stopping riding the old machine Nina approached her three-day subscription she did not visit. "Wahhh .. it seems that today you are so tired, may I ask for six donuts?" Of course, does the taste of donuts as usual? "Nina kindly welcomed the customer's request. Although the heart felt there was a feeling a bit uncomfortable he was very calm at the time. "She is of course as usual, are you sick why these three days did not deliver donuts to our place?" While shaking her head and smiling Nina in response to her customers. "Oh my goodness my wallet left in the house please wait a moment yes, I will get the money fit." The customer ran small to her residence not far from where Nina stood. Not until the customer was back in the hope of bringing money to buy donuts.
From the residence that signifies the inhabitants have a Christian belief from the salip hanger that swings on the roof of the door. Appear a beautiful and cute child who runs to the road traversed by a motor vehicle, suddenly Nina gasped as the child kept passing while in front of her there was a vehicle going through it. Without thinking again Nina immediately chased the child and immediately hugged her while shouting "Watch out." The funny child was frightened and turned away from Nina's embrace. Nina tried to calm down and picked up all the donuts thrown from the plastic she was holding. Without Nina realize the child has returned to her mother's embrace. The child cried louder with fear. Nina stood and turned to make sure the child was okay. But when she wanted to ask the situation of the child to her mother Nina increasingly jerked. She never imagined if this really happened in her life. In her mind this is the sign that causes lately she always has bad feelings. The woman and her daugther were really the figures in the past. The woman wiped her daughter's wet face with tears. Nina increasingly did not understand why this situation should he through after as hard as possible she tried to be strong and tough.
customers it over to Nina, she returned to the money to buy a donut sold Nina. "thank you for help, you helped my daughter." words was increasingly make Nina helpless the fact that customer last year she has served is also a part of the past. she also to her. impossible Nina ran fact her knees feels limp and as always she is not possible to shy away from what had happened. "Nina is that correct you?" Nina trying to escape. "ochh ..." when Nina trying to avoid but She wanted to explain, suddenly jolt sound the tiny. "Mama I want to donuts Brown." whining cute child it was pretty help businesses Nina to escape.
"That obsolete paper should I throw it away, it seems I have to forget everything so I do not remember it I really have to burn it." The scream made the middle-aged woman shocked. Recently Nina came looking tired. But it is not a weirdness because tired of course she passed after a day of work. The strangeness was visible when Nina directly into the room without greeting her mother. "Nina do anything wrong today?" The middle-aged woman again tried to find out what grief was approaching her daughter.
"Mother four years ago they came here and destroyed everything, now they come back again Mother." Looks like Nina this time really can not hide her sadness to her mother. "Who's coming and coming back again dear, will they bother you?" The middle-aged woman actually knew what her daughter meant but she did not know what to do to make her daughter calmer. Nina began to feel the pain was getting closer. The worn-out paper in her hand was almost all of the paper yellow and very fragile. The paper resembled the heart of Nina that began to wear out and began to fragile. "My mother must immediately burn this paper, what is the use of I keep this paper, this paper only makes me suffer more Mother." Nina's heartbreak grew more heart-wrenching. Which mother is willing to see her baby suffering never ending. It never occurred to her in the middle-aged woman's mind that Nina should suffer more than she did.
"Listen to mother, Nina you can not fall in the same hole. If you throw away your divorce paper with a man who will hurt you, it will be hard to get it. Mother really does not want you to have trouble looking for another life, honey. "Again the words of the middle-aged woman stressed Nina to open a new page in a different ark. "It's not your fault, not the paper's fault. We have to get through all this, Mom knows to start it is very difficult, but we have to step and through all this Nina. You want to go through all this together with Mom. "
Since meeting with the woman and the girl this afternoon. Nina felt her life go back to heartache. But the hoarse voice on the lips of the middle-aged woman strengthened her fragile heart. Nina is well aware that her mother has suffered a long time. She did not want to add scarring in the rest of his mother's age. Both women who often feel the sadness in the heart can only end by mutually reinforcing one another. In the night sky again the stars were absent dark and overcast. It is like the image of the hearts of the two grieving people. Nina knows very hard to live her life. As difficult as he wanted to close his eyes at that moment. As he tried to close her eyes lightning from the roof of this nature as wanting to grab it and describe the face of a man who has the heart to hurt and trust.
Not wanting to run away from the fact that has happened to her. The nuances of sadness even almost lethal it wants her to disappear instantly just hoping his life like other human beings. Who though only armed with simplicity but still feel happy. As long as it is not poverty that always makes her heart sad. Nina starts to realize what keeps her in the same state. That very day she decided to stop selling donut cakes. Not because the income she received little or no because he was tired to make merchandise it. However, because he must avoid what always makes her heart sad. For her, four years was enough to feel anxiety, sadness, even the heartbreaking thing though. From this time she felt she had to change everything. All this for the sake of her Mother, her life, and most importantly for her sacrifice of what she has lived.
"Nina if today you are not ready to work, you better at home yes dear?" Make sure her daughter is in fine state The middle-aged woman began to smile on her lips smile like a rainbow that comes after the rain It was a new spirit for Nina's fragile heart. "No Mom I'm fine, is not it better to work than at home and remember the past that there is only sadness and deepening pain inside." The middle-aged lady realizes there is a change in her daughter.After all this long in anxiety thinking about the fate of the heart of the baby.The middle-aged woman began to feel the tranquility. She knows although forbidding Nina to work not so easy Nina silence at home. She knew very much about her daughter's heart, the more Nina feels tired of the problems her life is the harder Nina to avoid it.However, that's the reason that makes middle-aged woman is always worried worry. She was in fear that her daughter would really be tired of her life. Now the middle-aged woman feels she must also turn her anxiety into the courage to let Nina choose which way of life she wants to go through. For her now Nina chose alone forever or work to divert her sadness is not a problem anymore. At present the most important thing for a mother who always witnesses her daugther's heart is no other than happiness for Nina. If she had to risk her life with Nina's happiness then surely she would do it.
Nearly a kilometer stepped away from her residence. Not to mention the destination she was going to visit. Arriving at the end of the alleyway is the place where public transport passing by. Nina decides to look at her purse in her handbag. Just to make sure there is still money left to pay for public transportation services. When Nina wanted to return her wallet again, suddenly Nina saw the folding of a business card in a brown wallet that almost changed color to a shabby black. Nina said in her mind. "Will this be my goal today?" A little smile after undecided determines where the purpose is to ride the public transport.
Arrived in front of some luxurious shop in bona fide area. Nina has found out where the shophouses will go. Right in front of the shop filled with beautiful flowers of various kinds. "Lena!" The woman who was planting some seeds in the plastic pots resembling the stone immediately turned toward Nina. It seemed that Nina had not seen her best friend during her high school years. Both ran small to relinquish each other longing with the embrace of friendship. "Is this really the Nina I used to know?" The narrow eyes will never forget Nina. Three years ago in high school sitting together is an unforgettable memory. "Yahh really I at least changed due to marriage is too easy hehehehe ..." for so long never take off laughter Nina finally find a place to joke. "How do you know about my flower shop?" Both of them entering a small room in the shop where Lena's personal as owner.
With a sigh Nina rushed to answer her friend's question. "Yeah, a few months ago I met Rendy at the Bank and I saw he was in a hurry. But he turned back to me again, I thought he did not see me. Your husband is greeting me and immediately give you your card. Although I did not have time to talk at length I was grateful because Rendy still had time to give this card to me. "While pouring coffee from a machine that is almost similar to the dispenser Lena started murmuring. "Ochhh that, that day my husband told me that he met you, but I also forgot because that day we had to hurry to singapore to take the little guy to join the piano playing contest at an early age. Not to mention the time back from our daughter singapore sick and had to be hospitalized. "From a bit of her friend's story Nina can already guess if Lena's life at this time must be very happy. "Really your daughter must have a talent like her mother." After so long not praising her friend it was strange for Nina to praise Lena through her daugther. "Hahahaha you always praise me for that one problem. Oia, how about Christian? Where do you live now? "The question was a touch that made Nina want to run. It seems that Nina is not ready to tell her life's problems to anyone.