Hello Steemians friends,

Today iam writing about myself.

I didnt sleep well last night because today is going to be a little bit stressful.

Not that special, who hasn't experienced some stress lately?
For me today will be very stressful.

We're going to have a fire drill afternoon at work. But only to think about a slow whoop give me the creeps.
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Sirens, police, fireman, smoke and uniforms make me want run away as far as I can.

Maybe you are wondering why. In my childhood i witnessed a fire that started by the neighbours ride Across our family home. I was eight years old years old when I discovered the fire next to my great grandmothers home.

My mother called the fire brigade and told me run my grandparents house for help.

Luckily my great grandmother could get out offhouse, the woman in the burning house was not so lucky. She didn't survive the fire.

The whole situation has been very stressful. My great grandmother, the panic and the fire it made a huge impact on me.

In my adult life I had a few more encounters with law enforcement.
And I know we can't do without them but the way they treat people is not always very nice.

About 15 years ago we had also a fire drill. I started sweating and puking I didn't feel very well.
At first I thought it was the flu but it wasn't.
For no reason I could think of I got nausea and stomach ache.

My doctor thought that I have a burnout. Therefore he gave me medicine. But I didn't feel better in fact it got worse. At that point I wasn't functioning at all. I was just surviving....I was diagnosed with PTSD.

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After treatment with EMDR life became living again and not just surviving. They say that iam healed but that somethings will never be "normal" again.

More Info on Ptsd

What is a post-traumatic stress disorder?

A post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSS) occurs when someone has experienced a nasty, profound event and continues to suffer from it. Such an event is also called a trauma. In a traumatic event there is life threatening, death, serious injury or sexual violence.

Examples of traumatic events are: sexual abuse an accident war abuse be witness to violence or an accident.

At PTSS, traumatic events come in an intrusive way in someone's thoughts or dreams. It is as if he is experiencing the event again. He does every effort to avoid these thoughts. For example, he does not go to the place where it happened.

What are PTSS complaints? Complaints that may point to PTSS include:

• itemrevival by flashbacks or nightmares
• avoiding people and situations that recall memories of the trauma
• deny what has happened and escape the feelings (for example, drinking a lot)
• physical reactions when someone sees or hears something that recalls the event, such as sweating, palpitation or respiratory distress
• shut down for others
• memory loss
• increased irritability
• sleeping problems
• concentration problems
• guilt feelings
• fast and violent scare of things
• be quick angry aggression to self (self-injury) or to others
• inferiority (negative self-esteem)

All of these complaints make it impossible for someone to function properly in their daily lives.*

♡wish you all a very nice day ♡