Dear Diary: I Always Fear My Future Because All Is Uncertain For Me

in health •  6 years ago 

As a very sick person I do not anymore want to live long but I just wanted to only get into my goals for my family, to make them live comfortably especially for my parents who are already old with no one to support them except my siblings which is really not enough.

But I will not lose hope in getting the necessary operation for three things which are all a punch on the moon goals. They are for my facial reconstruction surgery. I have a disfigured face or head for that matter and it needs to be corrected so that at least I could eat normally and speak normally again without much effort.

I also want a parathyroidectomy because the medicine for my hyperparathyroidism condition makes me sick and my well-being down to the floor. I cannot be like this forever and I needed a solution and that is the only solution was to take most of my parathyroid so that it won't wreck havoc anymore into my body system and cause pains and bone degeneration.

Next is my goal for a kidney transplant. It will solve my need for my dialysis which is very tiring already. It might solve my hyperparathyroidism too which will lead to an outright bone healing. And of course it will bring back my stamina and strength supposedly and my well-being as well. In short I will feel normal again.

But there is still fear and worry in me that I might not achieve my goals. All I can do is to hope that some of them can get done in the future and save me from some of my life misery. It is a hard life that I am managing but I just have to persevere and not lose faith on crypto because it is the only way that I can save myself and beat this peculiar health issue that I have one and for all.

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I can only say you are a very very brave person. Your conditions are not at all easy but the way you are putting up a fight against it is incredible and also a lesson for many. I wish that your health progress happens in the manner you have planned and that you come back to a healthy normal life. My best wishes and prayers are with you

Thank you Ma'am for your kind words and encouragement.
I am just in a constant struggle for survival in this world but the difference was that I have friends behind my back particularly here from steemit and it does soften the blow of life for me for which I am with all my heart very thankful and grateful.
God bless and keep you.

Your thought is hart touching . I am very sad for your thought . Best wishes for you @cryptopie

透析对于一个人真的很麻烦,祝你早日康复!

It is necessary that you maintain the faith that the operation you need is going to become a reality and that you will have the success you need to improve your health.

I envy your determination, and even though your dream may seem far fetched, your progress here is very evident and fruitful. You inspire me. ALoT.

My friend everyone's future is uncertain, you are alive and well today that is all that matters. Tomorrow is a new day.

Nunca te rindas @cryptopie que de seguro lograrás esos objetivos que te has planteado y poder mejorar tu calidad de vida. Saludos y mucho animo

Hello @cryptopie

Life might not be what we expected it to be but we just have to keep our hope alive even when things are not working out fine the way we want it to be.
I know God will surely help you to achieve all your goals and make you whole.
Do take care of yourself.

you will be fine nd all u need will be grnted

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