Today as I tried to watch a movie I suddenly felt that I am sleepy and started to yawn. I thought to just turn off my PC for a while and try myself to get some sleep. But after shutting my eye I could not sleep at all, it is an odd thing to happen but I am not surprised.
I thought that it was my eve day of dialysis because it is my dialysis tomorrow that is why I am feeling off today. Now I do not want to do anything because I just feel ill although I can still make a post about it.
These are just one of the things that I have to endure in my life day in and day out which is a misery by itself. I do not know if I would be thankful about it because it has been so long and I am just tormented by always feeling not very good especially when I started to use my parathyroid medicine as it feels like I am on a survival mode trying to exist and not having the feeling of near-normal life.
So I will still be thankful if I would die one day having to leave all unfinished things behind. That is life and unfortunately I was the one who had landed in this kind of life that in my wildest dreams I even never had but it is a reality and I have no choice but to live with it.
The help of steem community the blows on me are softened up a bit but the misery is still there and I do not know when all these things will end, I just needed to have a rest, it is all tiresome already. But maybe tomorrow after my dialysis hok-up I will feel jolly again but for now I feel like shit again.
Everyone is here on earth for a reason, we all go through our own personal hell in one way or another. Stay strong, focus on the mission.
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Yes Sir @reseller Thank you
It is a damn hard path of life I am traversing but I have to really fight and suck it all up as there are no more options for me to do but to press on.
God bless you.
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Hang in there buddy and yes lets hope
Dialysis brightens you up which I think it usually does.
Just know you’ve made friends and history on this wild and revolutionary ride called STEEMIT!! #steem #steemit #steemfam
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Thank you Sir @streetstyle I value you and along with our other friends here at steemit because you are showing me the love and care that even my relatives cannot do for me. I must say that I am one of the fortunate people in the steem blockchain.
God Bless you all.
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Life certainly has its ups and down’s @cryptopie, and you have a path in life much harder than some......... I wonder sometimes if God knows just how to use us to touch others.......Like you have😊
@cryptopie keep Mrs silvertop’s Brother in your prayers, he just passed after a week long hospital fight with several health issues.......
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Hang in there..just like Steem
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Your life is life to cryptopie wakeup and do it
You can
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i always like you. thnx for share your update
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sorry your not well. good luck for the dialysis tomorrow! trust all will be better again soon for you ♥
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I hope you again Be healthy
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Hang in there buddy and yes lets hope
Dialysis brightens you up which I fhink it usually does.
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