Dear Diary: I Hope That I Am Fattening Up Because Of Some Sign About It Lately

Today I had eaten well at dialysis as I nearly had finished my two bowls of rice meal of fried meat with gravy. But the servings today is very handsomely given because my mother told me that the chubby guy is the one that prepared my food and my regular meal got bigger again of almost a quarter much more food.

It was also freshly made because my mother have to wait for them to finish cooking the fried meats. But I just can't finish up the second bowl of remaining two big spoonfuls and I told my mother to bring home my leftover which is not that much to our dog.

But I am happy that I ate well again and it is a big issue for my efforts to regain lost weight. But I can never seem to finish my dialysis session lately due to the fact that I am crashing my blood pressure. Today with 17 minutes more to finish I gave up because my vision once again is already dimming out and my BP is down as if no beats could be detected anymore. So with regret I accepted that my session was cut prematurely because I can no longer continue with a crashed BP again.

I am looking at it as a good sign that I was gaining weight already because if you took more water than the extra in the body sometimes it causes BP to crash. It just means that a real body mass already had replaced those water weights.

I would look at it as a good result from my meal replacement intake everyday mostly during breakfast only. But the only thing is that it is expensive to purchase but I could spare some budget on it since my finances are currently put in my medical and personal needs and no more.