PATM / TMAU - My Story (No Negative / Condescending Comments Please)

Hi ,

My story might seem very abnormal to most, but having talked to several members of small communities online recently I have come to know at least I am not totally alone. I am about to turn 24 years old this December, I used to be a very outgoing, fun teenager with lots of friends and good relations with my extended family. Around when I turned 19, I began to notice after some days abroad that a large number of the people in the streets, in stores I would enter, on public transport and everywhere I go would have some strange reactions around me. Picture entering a store and all of the clerks begin sneezing, sniffing, wiping there noses etc. and giving you the strangest looks. It developed over time where some people it would affect like an allergic reaction as described above, and others would complain of a nasty body odor. It got so bad that I would have taxi driver's get mad and throw me out mid-journey , randoms would give me abuse and strange looks and my friends slowly drifted away from me. I became increasingly anxious and isolated. Now I cannot hold down a job, doctors do not want to even try understand and instead just push anxiety and anti-depressant medications onto me which make my quality of life even worse as I am tired and worn-out feeling most of the time I'm awake. It's so hard to deal with and with it coming up to my birthday in a couple of weeks I'm extra sad thinking how much of my 20's I've already missed out on due to this. I try to be brave and face the looks and comments some days , but it wears down on me pretty quickly each time and I isolate for even longer. I see this as a vicious cycle and I have lost hope for the most part, though I am currently trying to find a lab in my country which will perform a gas-chromatography analysis for me , which is apparently one sure way to prove to my doctor's there is something abnormal happening to me. Please if anybody on here suffers from or knows somebody suffering from similar , if you have any tips or advice I would love to hear them. I have tried many supplements and diet changes etc. but currently not a single thing is working or has worked for almost 5 years. I am really desperate , this condition has my life is in ruins.