Moved to Greece as an introvert.

Recently I did my biggest decision to move from Norway to Greece for work. I did not have much in Norway so I had nothing to lose when I accepted yes for a role as a customer service. I have almost been here for 3 month now and I am not sure what to think about my decision yet.

Since I am shy and really introverted it has been a real challenge to get to know new people. Right now I spend most of my time alone because it is easier mentally. I am already a person with few words, and In a group I am the quiet one. I am probably the guy who does not say a single word for the entire night. Still I want to comment on the things that is being said, but it is not easy when I am struggling to just open my mouth. When I am out with people and this starts to happen I get depressed and start to reflect on the situation. I start to ask why I am here if I am not saying or doing nothing; I will not make a stronger connection with the people I went with, nor will I make new connections.

That is when the inner struggle is hardest, when the evening ends and I still get home alone with no accomplishments. To feel that there is no point of continuing, feel like a misfit, and the fear that this is getting harder the older I get. That is why it is easier for me to spend my time alone, just because it is an easier battle to fight. I really want to go to party and I try to convince myself that today I will better, but I am terrified of what I will do if my inner thought get too much for me to handle.

I was hoping things would change when I moved to Greece. I was hoping I would get more comfortable around people and maybe start having a real conversation, but so far it have not been what I hoped for. Some part of me feels that I will always be destined to feel alone and misrable.