Day 23

Here in the clinic we are taught to emphasize the 3 vitals of life on a daily basis.

Health

Money

Love

( I would prioritize love over money but Im just displaying it in the order as we are meant to learn it)

As a first step for our health Self Esteem is considered to be the most important. Myne feels non existent right now.

I hate to be gloomy but the ups and downs are wearing me down, Im questioning if being here is doing me enough good to compensate the fact that I am not out in the real world and getting ready to go back to my job right now. At this point I should be feeling better about myself but the fact is all that is happened and what awaits me just seems to be a big cross to bear right now. In my mind I know that I will come out of this, but the feeling of despair is just overwhelming right now and getting in the way of looking forward. 

I would give anything to be happy again, I was warned by many people in many ways that my choice of a life partner was not not the right one, but I chose to ignore them over and over again. Ignoring the opinions of others when you think you are to inteligent is a very ignorant way of looking at life.

This is my diary so I want to make sure to keep it honest, hopefully at a later date when I look back at this I can learn from this experience and use it to avoid ever falling into a similar situation.