if you are not satisfied with the current position of the life

You are not alone. Every ‘now’ place is essential for the journey. I’m of the belief that since we didn’t breathe life in our lungs at birth, we can’t be the one to snuff it out without consequence. I’m of the belief that ending this life, only starts it up in the next realm. I’m of the belief that showing up early can cause a lack of being prepared for what’s required in the next realm.

The thought of showing up early and existing in a place of limbo, for decades until my time of arrival is deemed, makes living life in the most mundane of ways worth staying in the race. See the now as an athlete in training. In the hardest part of the preparation he persists, trudges through the pain.

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but, we do it to get a crown that will last forever (1 Corinthians 9:24-25).

what about my parents

I’m so glad that you have an awareness to know that you have a reason to stay in the fight. Keep that as your focus to help you stay strong.

May I encourage you to adopt the mantra: Quitting on life is not an option.

Say it, write it, until it awakens in your spirit.

Can you help me because i have no one to share this.

There is a community of people on the platform who can empathize with what you’re going through. I’m one with an open door to help you work through what you’re going through, or just listen.

Btw, here’s the number to the suicide hotline.

1-800-273-8255

If you feel that you are in crisis mode, I urge you to make the call. It is free and available 24/7/365. People are trained to listen and professionally help you make sense of what’s best for you to do.

Best regards.

Peace.