As you know I have that ‘hour’ today for downtime so I guess my body was telling me that I needed to try and recover the morning by getting up extra early. I’ve already done the chores and made my protein banana milkshake.
Intending to jump straight into courses this morning again, stats are looking good on all fronts there, obviously the goal is still very much to 5/10x that and then diversify that baseline. I still believe very much that there is a lot more that I can do here as this month has proven.
Milkshake extra creamy this morning because I used less milk (gotta save some for those coffees now right) had eggs for the first time in a week or so as well for additional protein and the stomach is grumbling a little but they were delicious, no wraps thou as I can’t get flour anywhere.
Feels a little like war time rationing on that front, crazy to think they are bringing museums of mills back online to meet demand, that’s kinda crazy to me that the can even do that but I guess if the unit is fully functional and it’s there then why the heck not.
My perfect job role right now would be some kind of role where I get to commute to a field in my electric transportation and get involved at local level with food production. I’ve definitely turned a corner about ‘food’ in general since the start of isolation.
Apart from housing/roof over our head, food comes a real close second to me and I’ve never really understood why I give it so much importance when it comes to ‘security’ especially when there is scarcity — you can only adapt to the output so much before you have to do something about it.
It makes so much sense to me now why my grandma and grandad had larders and ‘pickle onion’ stores underneath the stair well in their house — it was like a treasure trove of all things picked in there. I understand now the contentment that my grandparents had now knowing they had food on tap.
Good food too, clean food, grown from seed to plant to table, nursing it along the whole journey, making it part of the day, I’ll never be able to shake the smell of the Spanish tomatoes that my granddad used to grow.
I think the main reason he used to love going to Spain was not for the holiday but so he could sneak back some more seeds because he loved how hearty a Spanish tomato was over the English ones. They were just so much more heavyweight, he used to talk to his plants too.
Anyway, what I’m saying is that I’m certainly looking for something to change up too. Something that combines getting hands and mind dirty at ground level that works with my sleeping schedule.
I miss those deep deep sleep naps we used to have after swimming. Those were so perfect, you’d go and crush a bunch of lengths and I’d do like four and we would both get home and crash from the exercise — the best kind.
Guess I’m looking to fill those areas that use up too many processing cycles, sourcing foods, I’d rather work at the source, early, then leave early afternoon and get into a writing or video vibe, crush that for the next half of the year, feel like I’m contributing somewhere outside of this bubble.
I know you were a little concerned for me yesterday and last night and I loved the little audio message but really it was just a ‘blank’ moment yesterday, I guess that particular sunday did not want to be productive — I’ve switched that up this morning however.
Ok, I’m gonna close up and post this message to the ‘two chains’ of Mordor and send you a link, gonna maybe take a bit of time out this morning to properly format a decent layout for these courses. I’ve got so many lined up now it’s kinda crazy.
I do have a new process thou. The intention is to release a new mini course every week, post it on a monday, promote all week and then record the next one in the middle of that week, using the days leading up to the next ones release to pump it up — all I need to do is find that flow.
I guess that’s where I was going with this post really, it’s identifying those flow states in myself that I spend too many brain cycles circling around — considering “location” and “food” too much, they really do take a lot of the creative time away, less survival mindset now which feels liberating.
Anyway, think I’m gonna stop here, just wanted to welcome you to another week, the last one of April, you know that month that flew past and welcome to may, literally just around the corner now — if there is some solace to the days apart it’s days towards a vaccine, days towards the eventually lifting of lockdown, the restart of movement.
If time is a construct then we will be back together before you know it, this next time, let’s make those big next moves together, there is so many things we are not doing that we should be, can be, will be. I still want all of those things together as a unit.
We are an effective team ;)
__humble x