Do you believe in Jesus

Yes, I believe in Jesus. His message caused me to disbelieve in Islam. I once had great respect for Saddam Hussain and Osama Bin Laden. I considered them to be heroes of Islam. Yasser Arafat was someone I really wanted to be like.

But I renounced Islam and it did not happen right away. I felt that Allah was coming down from heaven to make me renounce Islam. My belief in Islam was unprotected. I even discriminated against them, fighting Hindus and fighting the Semites.

I remember when I was about eight, my mother showed me a newspaper article about Bush and Osama. He pointed at Osama and said to me "Look at his face, he has peace like an angel," then he pointed at Bush and said to me, "Look at this devil" ... I remember hearing that he was right and the US was wrong to follow Osama.

I did not like Christianity and believed that the only truth was Islam. I understood the difference between the 'Christian Jesus version' and the 'muslim Jesus version' and I respected only the latter.

My parents enrolled me in a Christian school that was quite standard. They felt very safe because I was a young Muslim boy who would be molested by anti-Muslim and ‘non-religious’ children in their minds}

It was this school that taught me many things about Christianity. I also learned a little about Christianity from my grandmother who was a believer in the full gospel. But I was also taught by my parents that grandmother) was a unbeliever.

The first week of my schooling, I met my first Christian ministry. I felt completely uncomfortable. I do not like you. They sang loudly and clapped their hands as they sang. Something strange to me. But it was a stranger. They were praising the name of Jesus in a way I had never seen before. I was shocked and thought that they would all burn in hell for praising Jesus like this.

When I first started learning about Christianity, it was only then that I realized that I needed to learn more about Islam. I have been learning things about Jesus that I accept but I will try to find them in Muslims and get confused. I was angry that Jesus was infallible and angry that Muhammad's history was different and that my whole religion was based on his teachings.