Pain is really my co-joined twin brother and I can't seem to separate myself from it

Source - @cryptopie

Source - @cryptopie

Source - @cryptopie

Source - @cryptopie

Diclofenac had already worn-off from my body so now I am feeling that miserable pain again, it is like my back is strained and it is making every movement of my torso being not that "fluid" anymore. Basically I feel strained and very limited to the point that I fear not to move or sit, much less walk.

I plan to take some pain medication again, just half of Diclofenac will do, about 50 mg of the tablet which I had shown in my previous blog post. I regret to take any medication if any kind because of its side-effects but I am just forced because I am always longing for that easement from miserable pain.

Although I had been having improvements with my Leontiasis condition, the pain still persists even if I am not anymore giving my Parathyroid a reason not to be hyper anymore about its hormone pump, but still I am experiencing pain. Well at least I had become mobile now unlike in the past where it is just impossible to walk.

My previous Calcium level tests for my blood is high and I was advised to cut-back on my Calcium supplementation. It is a good thing because at least I can save some money for my calcium use but I have to supplement myself with it because I use it to control my blood's Phosphorus levels. It is quite working well with that regard because also, my previous Phosphorus level tests shows that I have a low blood phosphorus levels. Low blood phosphorus levels is actually bad because I have to make it in a normal level and the only thing that I can do is to lower my Calcium supplementation.

I have yet to see my latest Calcium and Phosphorus levels and it is great thing that my government health insurance system will be the one covering the costs and now I can easily know what to do in order to effectively manage this imbalances in my blood's pertinent substances aforementioned so that hopefully it will make more difference on my overall well-being.

I can say that I am still doing very well overall because I am one of the few people or dialysis patients that had lasted this long although I suffered battle scars of physical disability in the process but I am still alive and contributing to society. I am still in high spirits and not depressed at all but I may had been so frustrated in life, however what I am truly focusing on is looking forward to the "real life" which is beyond this lifetime, so it is not really bad after all because for me, we should all be striving to reach heaven and not cling to this life which is just temporary no matter how fully lived your life with carnal happiness and tangible luxuries, you will just leave them all in the moment of your passing.

Life is still good and I am thanking God a million times because of his unspeakable gifts and works all throughout my life because I am getting the help that I needed for me to just have my "head above water" by receiving the love and care with this peculiar life entangled with things which are now beyond my control but still managing it regardless.

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ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ɪᴍᴀɢᴇs ᴀʙᴏᴠᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴄᴀᴘᴛᴜʀᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴡɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ @cryptopie 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥

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