Dear Me ,
I am sorry for not loving you . I know that when people made you suffer , when you used to constantly get bullied in school by both students and teachers , when your own loved ones laughed at your tears , I was the one you needed the most , but I wasn't there . When you used to cry every night hoping for people to react better at your tears , at your pain...... I wasn't there. You needed me.
You wanted someone to love you and support you , to tell you that you are best . I wish I was there to always protect you from such an abusive environment , to tell you that don't love anyone more than yourself . Just don't ! . That it's ok if some people don't love you , it's ok , you are enough for yourself !!!!.
I am sorry for loving other is more than you please do not suffer don't beare with it.
Sometimes Suffering Is Just Suffering,
It Doesn't Make You Stronger ,
It Doesn't Build Character,
It Just Destroys You , Only Hurts You.....
I love you ! I love you so much ! . I promise you I want ever love anyone more than you . I promise you !! . I am sorry for not being there when you were depressed or had suicide attempts , for not being with you when you was crying alone , for not encouraging you that it's okay ! leave it ! don't care for people who aren't yours..
For not stopping you from prioritising others . It was my job ! it was mine ! . I'm sorry.... I really am.. .
But you know I am very proud that you survived . Thanks for still having humanity and not becoming dead from inside . You really changed a lot , all those things led you in dark . You no more trust anyone , you no more make friends , don't want to love , you don't speak too much anymore , you became even mature, you aren't able to demand . You forgot how to laugh truly.
Okay it's good that you mastered your emotions but it hurts realising that you mastered your fake smile . Why you became so tired.... so done with people? Why you became alone, crying soul ?
I actually have answers to all of it .
Thankyou for surviving , for being alive .
And now I will help you in healing yourself , for I know
you are dying from inside... .
I AM DONE .
THANKYOU.
Regards
@moyeon