I can only load the first photo and it looks good enough to me. Very shiny bright weather. Unlike you I would ask someone to take a picture for me but like you I would also prefer to stay home instead of people looking at me.

I've been stuffed from the age of 6 months with drugs so most of it doesn't work. I gave up on it a few years ago (the doctor said: No, no way, your kidneys will give up on you but I still did.). I am happy I could and I will not take medication again. I feel better than I did during the biggest part of my life all that's left is "to live" with the side effects and harm it caused me and drugs no longer work (not that they ever really did).

We always recognize a lack too late and today the food doesn't contain much. Next to that with me everything works the other way round. I fall asleep if I drink coffee and use 9000 mg Vitamine C per day and anesthesia keeps me awake.

Perhaps positive thinking and a strong will is all one needs? I believe that's the case with you. Next to that don't stress yourself out and try to do what is possible. It's hard to ignore pain but it's good to hear that 25 mgs helped you through the dialyses and that the painkillers still do what they are meant for.

I hope you have some friends you can watch a film with or have a chat with and can do some things there's no need to always sit straight up.

A warm embrace to you.