LOL ! To learn from your mistakes, you have to start by recognizing them. I remind you that I am not a witness and I never have been. You are a witness and the level of your response is worrying.
You don't take responsibility for yourself and constantly shift the blame to others. But my comment is pure truth. You made a mistake and today you are fighting with the energy of despair to save your little comfort. That's a fact.
In any case, I understood months and soon years ago everything that was not working here.