I was standing at the edge of a high mountain
I could see the whole city from this point
Moving cars, the street lights, busy people and life going on underneath
I was on top of the world, right?
But maybe I was at the bottom of mine.
Mom wasn't here, to try and persuade me down
My friends weren't here
My siblings
My Pastor
Members of our church
Those I had confided in
None was present on this occasion.
On what I will say would make a new beginning in my life
Either for the better or for the worse
So I was all dressed up for this big ceremony
Ready to take the big step
The BIG LEAP!
Unfortunately, I was alone...
I wasn't alone though
I had company up there.
The wind gently whistling me into what would be a new beginning
The billions of thoughts going through my head at that moment
The birds also, were not left out
My legs were shaky
My heart was racing spontaneously
I was wet with my own tears
I was READY
Then suddenly, In the flip of a coin
I was all blank
I could neither hear the whistling winds, nor the birds
It was all dark
I didn't know where I was
Then I heard what I knew as the giggling sound of a joyful baby
I saw he was trying to take his first walk when he fell down
But someone else was there
Mom was there
There he was again, trying to write his first letter A
Mom was there too
Oh! The first person to ever wipe out his tears
It was mom
The first person to ever wish him a happy birthday
It was mom
On his graduation day
She was there
Every joy
Every pain
Every laughter
Every sad day
Every moment of his life
She has always been there
And as it came,
It left immediately
There I was again on that mountain
The songs of the bird wasn't pleasant anymore
The wind was blowing in it's intensity
I sobbed
I sobbed
I sobbed
I realized I would've made the biggest mistake of my life
I realized even at that very point in my life
On top of that mountain
Mom was with me, in her forever worrying thoughts about me
Then, I heavily took myself up
Took a step, and then the other
and walked my way back to REALITY
The reality that no matter what happens, true love will never desert us
That nothing is ever worth taking your life for
That you can only find true satisfaction with the knowledge of who you really are