What a great post! Thank you so much for sharing, so honestly and openly. It was intriguing to read.

Love...... Such a complex concept..
What is love? Is appreciating someone love? Does my dog love me when I feed him?
Is longing for someone love? Do I love that pretty girl I saw?
Is caring for someone love? Do I love my mother when I buy her a present?
I can use the word love in each of those sentences, and it will have a very different meaning for each..
So, does my love for my wife encapsulate all those definitions and more? When I tell my wife I love her, or when she tells me, what does it mean?

I think love is far too confusing to keep interchanging it like that, especially when trying to understand what the hell is going on...

I think the word 'relationship' might be less confusing, as it tends to have a more ongoing feeling to it.. Love is constant. Either you love me, or you don't.
Relationships are tricky, inconsistent, ever changing. You can be in a good relationship, a bad one, a dip in a relationship, a high, it's much more flexible.

My point is, when you're in a relationship, things change. At first (usually) everything is perfect. The honeymoon phase. But then, the relationship matures, it becomes more real. Suddenly there are problems, things have to be worked out. When I stay in a relationship for long enough, there's always a wave of good, then bad, then good again. Sometimes I need to work on things, sometimes I need to support my partner working on things. (usually both occur all the time.)

We had our first child 11 months ago. And this has, without a doubt, been the most stressful time in our six year relationship.
Especially in the mornings...

So, can I honestly, always say "I love my wife" even when I'm angry? Or can't stand her? Or want to be somewhere else?
Depends on your definition of love..

I don't know how much of this will actually be useful to you, or help in any way... But I hope that it might help in defining exactly what the issue is.
Are you scared of being hurt, and want to get out before? Are you afraid of missing an even better partner for you? A new and exciting adventure?

Try to ask yourself what sits at the root of that feeling. Even better, try discussing it with your partner, next time it happens.
Even if you don't end up spending your life with her, we can still learn from any relationship we are in.

In my personal experience, narcissistic tendencies usually end up causing me more harm and pain than good.

If I had to choose, I'd choose romantic over narcissist, but both are I adequate..
The truth is, sometimes I'm romantic, sometimes I'm narcissistic, but I always try to be honest, and share my experiences with my partner, and that for me, is definitely the best.

Looking forward to reading your posts, as you have most definitely piqued my interest..
All the best and have a good one.