The September #1 contest by @sduttaskitchen|Weird habit I want to change!

Hi friends!

I am Ninapenda, a lady who's got the most beautiful smile ever. I am just as beautiful as a goddess, and my skin glows just like freshly baked bread, but all these do not imply that I have no bad habit. Everyone has a weird habit that sometimes disqualifies them from something meant for them.

My wired habit is "anger." I am not easily angered, but when I get angry, I don't easily forgive. These two habits are really tormenting and dangerous. Sometimes I am boastful and proud when it comes to saying the word sorry.

It gives me a heart attack knowing that my opponent would claim the victory each time I say sorry as if I were ever in a competition with anyone. I see sorry as a very big and expensive word to use. I don't feel it's common to use, and so I tell myself that I can't say it to anyone even if I offend them.

This is pride, ya it is. I just discovered it though, because I don't see it as pride, but discovering my wired habits of late made me have a rethink about my life. I can't possess all these beautiful qualities I mentioned above and still have wired habits that could scare good people away from me.

I have made a decision to be better. I want to change all these habits because they are bad. They are not a habit someone like me should have. These habits are seriously overwhelming because each time I show them up, I don't feel any better; instead, I get worse.

It could be that I lost my friends because of this habit without knowing. You know we do things sometimes without knowing, and even when we are corrected, we don't see reasons with the person. I know I have lost so many things due to these habits, and I seriously want to be better.

Everyone of us carries one wired habit that might not suit the next person around us. I have been staying with my friend for months now, and she has been complaining of these wired habits of mine that are overwhelming her. She complains so much about it, and each time she does that, I get upset with her because I feel she's letting me down and feeling like the god.

I just don't want to be corrected about anything. I feel I always know it all; I feel I can always get it right, so each time she corrects me, I get upset and very angry at her. She has never been comfortable with it; that is why she complains.

A few days ago, she talked to me as if she were my mom, and those words for the first time pierced through my heart. I felt it that I was choking her, and I seriously need to be better for my sake first and others second.

This is my greatest desire, and I wish it happened so fast because I am tired of chocking people around me with it. No matter how hard we try to change, we can only change and be better when we make the decision to change. I look forward to a better me soonest.

I invite @pandora2010 @aviral123 @nancy0

All images are mine!