Today, I Was Told I Was Very Brave!

I get the most interesting reactions, when I tell people what is going on in my life right now. About how much is up in the air, selling my home, not knowing where I will move to, what I will live in, all which I have to achieve within the next 2 months.

Tick tok, time puts a funny spin on things, suddenly the idea of a deadline, is meant to put pressure on us, on me!

People seemed surprised that I am not tense or stressed out,don't get me wrong, when I do come out and talk about it, when it is all there for me to see, I have moments of feeling overwhelmed.
But I'm not going to let that over take me, I'm not going to let it become me.

I know that whatever happens, Me and my girls will be okay, that something will come up and that I will continue to do, what I can each day to get to reach that point.

Allowing the stress to get to me, will be debilitating, so I choose not to go there.

It was not always that way, I used to get overwhelmed quite easily in the past, keeping everything inside my head, my own thoughts imprisoning me. Growing up in a world where so much is contained, where we are encouraged to be a certain way. Being raised in a home, where everything was kept within.

Where silence was expected and anything else was frowned upon. It took me years to feel comfortable making noise! Being noisy! Everything that a child should be. I see that so clearly, now that I am a mother.

Why would you want to contain a child, it brings me so much joy, to see my daughters being free to be who they are! Having the freedom to express themselves, in whatever way comes naturally.

Life is meant to flow, we are meant to flow, our emotions, our thoughts, our creativity. Obstacles are necessary,because we are meant to be challenged, we are meant to find a way around, to think outside of the box.

But when we are forced to stop, when we there is no way around or through, we become stuck and our life follows only what is laid out in front of it and we are deemed to repeat patterns, that have so long been put in place.

Finding that internal movement, finding ways in which to reconnect with our core, with the strength we carry within, that is what will carry us forward. Breaking through the confinement,finally becoming aware of how we have been manipulated for so long, helps us find the light in the dark.

A light that we have always carried within, but for most, it is down to an amber and lost underneath webs of disconnection. But it is there, nonetheless.

If only, we could all see how much potential we really have, how powerful our relationship with the earth is. How living a life connected to nature, keeps us connected to the natural flow of abundance, that really is the natural state of being!

So yes, I could allow myself to get pulled under, by the amount of uncertainty in my life right now, just like I could allow myself to get swept up in this narrative of fear. But instead, I choose to see the truth of who I am and the truth of my relationship with the earth.

I choose to embrace the flow of abundance and trust that all will be okay! It's a part, of taking responsibility for your own life, of facing who you are and the changes you need to make, in order to thrive.

It's taking the time to do the things that you love to do, to dance, to sing, to create, to let life flow through you. To express yourself, to be free!

Life is never meant to be contained