Hi @nicen-cake.

Thank you for sharing what you feel with us.

After reading your post, I was reviewing what the problem may be. The first thing I find is that your posts were not made in the right community at first, that made them unable to verify you.

Another factor that I see is that you should post more often. That is the way we are present in Steemit, through publications and comments. In three months you have 47 posts, that can give you an answer.

My advice is:
Do not withdraw from Steemit. Try posting to your favorite communities.
Try to be more present by posting and commenting on others.
You can make 10 votes and 4 comments daily.

You can post:
#thediarygame
#betterlife

I hope you have success with these recommendations.

I leave you a lot of greetings, and you know, don't give up! : D