Am I excited? Nope!!

Being an adult, birthday never felt anything exciting to me. Especially now, when I'm crossing the number 30! Oh, the number is making me stressed. I turned 31 from today and it's reminding me what I've achieved and not in life. I can't stop this thinking nor I can skip.

So, I was searching online and also knocked some of my friends to check if everyone else feels the same. And you can guess what feedback I got. Yeah, it's totally normal to feel sort of sad because of we are aging. But it's totally okay, we are not old (never say that I'm old). ha ha ha...

To be honest, I never feel old or anything like this. But it's true I sometimes think that time is running and I still didn't reach my destination. It's a journey, I know and we never can ensure everything that we want. But I have to approve that I'm still lagging behind my dreams. It's not like that I have a big dream which is tough or something unachievable but still, it sometimes makes me feel sad.

However, I know how to be positive. I really have no regrets about my life, not about a single thing.

But...

I had a plan to become 'second time' Mom before my 30's. But I couldn't gather the courage to rare another baby, I need more time to mentally prepare myself. And I had some plan to raise my earning on a certain level (though it was not my priority) but I couldn't achieve that. So, these small things actually picking me and maybe it will continue. But it's okay!

What did I do today?

My husband ordered some of my favorite food from my favorite restaurants. Also, he surprised me with a birthday cake. Or maybe I shouldn't call it a surprise. Because in this COVID situation I was asking where he's going and he had to approve that he was going out to buy a birthday cake. But I didn't pick to see what he bought. I would call it a half-surprise! :)

And my son was super excited. He is three and this is the first time he understands it clearly that it's mom's birthday. He drew something random throughout the day and said it's a gift. Those are really a gift for me.

I'm not excited nor sad, passing time just like any other times. But it was a good day indeed.

THANKS FOR YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT!

Much Love

Who I am?I'm a Happy and Proud stay home Mom of a toddler boy.
I'm a life & nature enthusiast, I love to learn human psychology, I'm a 'Book worm' and very introvert but also love to travel. I'm trying to live mindfully and most importantly, I'm a positive learner.

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