THEME OF THE WEEK: LIFE STORY - Share a Great Memory of a Deceased Loved One / OCTOBER 28, 2021 / @azeizaazi

Hello, steemians!
How are you? I hope y’all are okay and doing good, I am inactive these past few days due to a lot of school works we’re given to us. So I encourage to join this contest because I have this friend who passed away last August and I want to share what the story is all about. So get ready to prepare your hearts and my minds to read this story.

He is one of my closest boy bestfriend, he just turned 16 years old and celebrated his birthday last July 19. He is a kind person, I don't know how to describe him because you can say he is a friend wanted but everyone. I knew him because his school is at the University of Cebu and I am from there since grade 1-6 but he went there grade 7 I guess and today we are already in the 10th grade. We knew each other because I have a lot of friends there and maybe friends connections talking about me and I he said he heard a lot about me. He chatted me first we were in 7th grade and knowing each other and that's how it started. And our first meet is when their school celebrated family day so I visited there, we didn't talk too much because I was shy but we just smiled at each other.

So move forward, we are not that close in personal who hangouts every day but we do video calls and chats but there is one time it was so unexpected they went to my school to fetch me and we ate at Jollibee near to my school it was him and velzzen his friend/classmate and my childhood friend/classmate since Elem. Even though that was just the first and last bond to us it was very memorable. He always says he’s gonna visit me because he wanted to play basketball at our court but he keeps on delaying it, by the way, he is a varsity a lot of schools get him to be varsity. He is so good at playing basketball, he’s height is 6 flat I think. We kept on telling him to hang out but when he’s free I'm not and when I'm free his not. Last June, I invited him to my birthday he is gonna go but he’s ashamed when velzzen is not gonna go with him because velzzen has an appointment with his dentist that's why they didn’t come. So last July 8th I and my friends went to consolacion to find a swimming pool because we wanted to chill and swim, I also told him about that and he has a dentist appointment to adjust his braces, the clinic is just near to my house so I said I will wait for him, so I waited for him for 30 mins I guess so when he arrived the clinic he said maybe he can’t go with us because he is scheduled at 1 pm and maybe he could come but he will be late, but sad to say he didn’t come because Consolacion is too far from Lapu-Lapu. Me and him we’re very close when the lockdown starts we sleep late, talking about our day and playing codm or pubg, and sometimes he’s gonna tell me about her girl and doing video calls I guess it started April 2020 but we already knew 2018, but we stop our communication august 2020 I guess because classes are about to start and we chat rarely. Last July 8 that was the last time I told him to hang out with us and our last chat was July 20 because I ask him about his braces how much it is and he told me when I got my braces he would come with me.

So when august came, this is the sad part, August 13 his cousin tweeted “(his name)” “please God no” I was confused that what it is all about so I checked his gf’s tweet and she also tweeted “please no”. So I checked his cousin’s Fb story and I was really shocked because it was a boy lying with oxygen and I really think it is him, so I ask her (cousin) what’s going on and she replied: “azi it is him” “azi I know you will end up hurting when I told you the reason but please don’t tell anyone about this” I was anxious and not ready to hear what happened to him, so his cousin told me he committed suicide when I heard that I didn’t believe it my tears were bursting because it was so unexpected why would he do that. So I told her why? why would he do that? She answered, “I don’t really know but his gf broke up with him” So what's on my mind maybe between family problems or his gf. That gf of him was his ex already they’ve been dating 1 and a half year I guess, I don’t heard much about her because my friend won’t really talk about their relationship. His gf keep on tweeting broken thoughts so I dmed her that keep on believing God and don’t lose hope because he will wake up. And on the next day, august 14 I kept on asking his cousin for an update if how is he doing she said, “he’s still fighting” until the next day he still didn’t wake up and I pray to God that he is strong and he would really fight. At that night his cousin said that he only have 2% left and a coma.

So the next day, August 16 it was our first day of school I slept late before that day because I couldn’t stop thinking about him so after the class, I slept and I woke up around 4 pm and his very closest best friend chatted to me “azi sorry to say but he is now at peace” I don’t know what to say I was crying and I really can’t believe that it was his last day in this world. I asked his cousin when could I visit him and she told me august 19 will be the first day but I don't have time for that so I visited him on Saturday with my friend. When I get there, seeing him lying down in the coffin was so heartbreaking because I still couldn’t accept it. But I know he could rest now peacefully and he is guiding well his loved ones up there. August 24 was his last day or tribute day I also went that day because his cousin forced me, I thought I'm not gonna cry that day because I don’t wanna let him seeing me sad. But, hearing his mothers speech was breaking my heart, everyone was crying, I could really see his mom’s pain inside even in her eyes, I remembered some of the lines she said, “Sorry son if I couldn't give you the things you were asking for but I would try my best to give you what you want soon son, and now I have already the chance to give you what you want but it was too late sorry son I love you so much” “he is the youngest and he is the only one who is the sweetest among his siblings he would even still kiss, hug and tell me I love you” aww :(( her momma bursting out her tears. and also “I really don't know what happened much to you son, because our family is already okay but I hope you are already happy up their mama loves you so much” I can’t help it I felt really broken seeing his mom hurting.

Everyone is like azi tell your speech now, but I don't have the guts to face and cry in front of everyone but all I wanted to say to him is “you fought bro, I know you really fought but I guess it's really the time. I am so thankful that even for a short period of time we bond together and I knew you a lot, you helped me, you gave advices, you keep on cheering me up. I already told you before to stop putting it on your mind suicidal thoughts I kept on seeing you sharing that on social media, tweeting about it, I warned you every time and you said you won’t do it but why bro? why? I know I couldn’t accept it but it's already happening. You were one of the kindest friend to me bro and you really are the great and best I hope I could meet you in another life my dearest friend, I miss you and I love you so much! You are now our angel."

So this would be the last of the story, sorry for not revealing the name it's just privacy. So my advice for y’all, always check up on your family, friends and loved ones if how were they make them happy especially those who were stuck and trapped at depression, help them because in the end maybe you will regret and suffer.

I invite @jenny018 @erin510 @rose1208 to join this contest.