To Be An Overseas Filipino Worker - A Good Choice?

I used to think going abroad was easy. Homesickness is one of my strongest opponents. I have been working abroad numerous times. I am now longing to go back home and be with my family again. There were chances but seem not yet possible this time. Every time my contract is going to end, our company will apply for our visa extension due to this pandemic. Lots of thoughts keep bothering in my mind that often make me talk to myself alone. Plus a strong typhoon hits our place, I can't help but worry, "how are they doing there?" There is no electricity, no signal... I want to hug and kiss my kids, "were they scared?"

I remember, whenever I called at home, my kids will tell me, “Pa, we miss you so much, when are you coming home?” These are usually the questions being asked by my two sons. I don't want to make a promise or give them dates when I can go back home because when my stay here in Japan is not sure yet. My only answer is “Let's just pray God will allow according to his ways. Help papa pray he can go back soon!"
I miss them so much already. I keep on imagining playing with them, eating with them, or bringing them to school. I miss a lot of special moments with them especially in times when they needed a father the most. I am blessed to have a strong wife who stands in those difficult times without me. She alone takes care of my sons, especially when they are sick, let alone during Covid plus the typhoon. Thank you, Lord, for giving her enough wisdom and strength.

I am very happy, even without me my eldest is very active in serving our church at a young age. He even became the first honors in their Children School Ministry. I was in tears the time he informed me about his achievement. I always remind him to be a role model and take care of his little brother while I am away. Since only the three of them are in our house, every time my wife goes out for groceries or if she has a school activity, my eldest son will be the one who is in charge of watching his brother. He feeds him, helps him to take a bath, and keeps their mother know about their whereabouts while she is away. Thank you, Lord, for giving me a wonderful son.

Aside from those nostalgic feelings, another toughest part is to adjust to the weather. Here in Japan, I am living in a remote area or far from Tokyo which is the capital. Winter is one of the hardest to adjust. Since I grow up in a different world our place “The Philippines” is always hot. During snow season, not only do I need to have those thick wearing, but my fingers are also cracking, swollen and numb. But I don’t tell this to my loved ones. All they knew was that my life is good because I am in a cold place. But it's okay because this is what I chose then... working in a foreign country.
Yes, I can endure and will continue to endure until the time comes when I will be blessed to be with them again.

I hope my sons will understand that I am doing all these, battling my emotional feelings for them, for their future hoping to give them a better life and education.

Best Regards,
@juichi