The Diary Game-season #25 (11-02-2022) Starting life from your own home

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh,
Happy to meet again and best wishes to all of us and may grace and guidance be given to all of us so that we are always happy always.
Before I continue this article, let me say hello to all my friends and admins who are always with us and of course very wise in managing this beloved community, he is Mr. @juichi @long888 @loloy2020 @olivia08 @kneelyrac
On this occasion, again I will continue the description of my story, of course in #thediarygame in part 25, this is a continuation story from the previous story, hopefully what is written will be useful and also inspired all,

Let's go straight to the diarygame part 25

But even on the in-laws side, I don't feel calm because there are a lot of rumors circulating, as if I want to be made like a slave in the family, because I'm not from a descendant of slaves who have to follow orders I will still be able to isolate myself without having to follow other people's orders because I'm not the type to be silent, hear and run,
Since I already have my own house, a problem seems to have been resolved by several things, but as a person who has just owned his own house, of course there are no smooth words in living it, because there are so many preparations that must be prepared, both material and mental, which must always be done. ready in any circumstances because this is the beginning of the struggle of life that must be lived well and full of patience especially the needs that always have to be there to support the family economy.

So since then, with a very simple life, it makes me seem to spin my mind even though I have to fight to be able to provide a good life for my family, I have to bear all my expenses, and I have to provide all the necessities, especially about the money that must always be there. to be able to buy a lot of necessities in the family, from pempes children, rice, side dishes and also many other things as a complement in the house.

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It felt like a hard smack for me, especially with the condition of the house that was not ready with the many things I had to re-create, both in terms of water, as a place to wash, let alone the need for food ingredients that must always be there, I felt like crying because the conditions were really true. hard for me to bear, while from the wife's side there is no sense of any help at all, I have to always go home and go to my parents' house to complain about my situation, although with a heavy feeling I still explain and hope for help.
This situation makes my task as a teacher even more chaotic and sometimes problems arise, but with silence and patience, that is my hope to be able to solve the problem, because it is impossible that this will always be the subject of stories in my workplace.
Day after day I pass alone, even though I have to endure a lot of grief in many ways, sometimes I also owe debt here and there which makes my mind more uncertain, how my wife never wants to understand this situation, she thinks that everything can be easy and moreover he never wants to put in the slightest effort and make this burden a heavy burden on me
Often he berates, insults, and belittles my work, and I can't stand his harsh mouth and stubbornness to what I advise, he relies on his family, even though not at all from his family who helped and eased my burden since I married him

But what can I say, I felt I had fallen into the smelly mud, made my whole body and soul tormented by the behavior and attitude of all his family and made me always in pain, and I remembered that before I built the house, I was at my father-in-law's house, I had a sister-in-law. who was married at that time, but I had hoped that it would be a place for me to vent, but unfortunately MUTIA, the sister-in-law died at that time after being married for a few boasts.
So since then it feels like there is no place to express the feelings that I experience, only a few younger siblings that I can't compromise on and tell about the burdens of my mind, it feels like everything is empty because I don't think all members of his family have mature thoughts.
What more, with full pressure forced to live at that time, even though the heart is always in a state of pain and does not match expectations.
That's all friends, for my thediarygame story in this post in the 25th section and will return with the 26th section, of course in the next post.

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