Love you ma, youare my jannat

Assalamualikum, I am maksuda Akter, I am the person who wrote on this platform for earning some dollars & devolve my career, but today I am very shocked for my beloved mother.
I lost her last June.
When my mother was alive on this earth I think that I am the queen of this world. But now I think I am the biggest poor person in this world.

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Because she shelters me every moment.
Every morning when I was gone from my office, my mother always put her hand on my head and that is the world. Now I really realised that she is one of my Jannat.
We don't really understand or want to understand that mother is our heaven. Today there is no mother so everything in the world seems false to me. When my mother saw my face, she could tell if I had eaten or not.
When my mother was alive, when I was in pain, I would run to her, hug her, and put my head on her chest.
The day my mother was the last sick was the day before. Somehow my fat is so bad, nothing feels good. Chest bursting. I ran to my mother, put my head on her chest, and started crying. And my mother began to pray all over my body, with her hands on her face. He wiped away the tears. I didn't realize then that I would never be able to put my head on this mother's chest and cry again. I can't speak my mind.

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There was a mother last Ramadan too, and there is no mother this Ramadan. Yet I pray that my mother may be happy wherever she is, may Allah forgive my mother, may she accept my mother as her guest in the highest place of Paradise.
Finally, I would like to say, ma'am, forgive me wherever you are, that I am your worst child.
I love you so much, mom
Without you, I'm empty today
The pace of my life is broken
O Lord Almighty, please forgive my mother with your mercy - Ameen

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