My mouth is not as good-looking as ever, the facial bone growth had really affected my eating but at least now I can sip some fluids while sitting or in an upright position because about two and a half years ago I cannot do that because I could not press my lips together.
Right after I had taken my Cinacalcet the facial bone growth receded a bit which is why I was able to close my lips even though normally it is wide open when it is in the relaxed position.
I just have to be thankful that some improvements had happened but still I am deeply bothered by my mouth. Basically I just needed a reconstructive surgery but due to my pre-existing medical condition it will be hard to do so plus the money that it will incur will surely be so much that it is impossible to happen anytime soon.
But if I would have the finances about that issue to get solved once and for all I am more than happy to spend all just to make my life close to normal as possible.
It is just depressing but right now I am just praying for my health issues not to get worse as they are now. I am also praying that a miracle happens in my life, that God would push away the clouds so he can see my appearance and change it and put me back to my normal state.
I actually wanted to die but I also wanted to accomplish things as much as I can. There is still a will inside me that lingers on for me to fight and strive to achieve something that is unconquerable.
So I have to get more inner strength with the grace of God because he is the only one that can change my life and not man even though I have so many friends in the far reaches of this world who are alongside me and I do thank God for them all, they too are so much blessings thta are affecting my life positively.