The big "However" yesterday

The big "However"

The dialysis nurse that informed me about the schedule told me to stand-by because the floods over there is starting to get deeper. It means that they cannot operate while the center itself is taking water inside it. Actually that dialysis center was renovated in order to lift the flooring a few inches up, but it was only a few inches from the original flooring and they wasn't able to predict that maybe in the future the flood won't reach this high to endanger it from flooding the first time after its recent renovation.

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I do not mind waiting, I am as patient as a rock but I cannot wait for so much because it will literally kill me because of my type of situation being dependent on machines to keep me alive.

They texted us not to go and stand-by and I am assuming that they will again relocate the dialysis center to the hospital like they had done before. So it will take a little while for that to happen so I needed to wait painfully until I get dialyzed. Actually I am already full of water and I will be controlling my food and fluid intake starting now to avoid being sick with the extra build-up of toxins in my body. But I bet that by the time if God wills it for me, to get my treatment session I am already feeling more sick than ever.

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Feeling sick and nauseous all the time is what I am experiencing everyday and only partially alleviated by dialysis from which I could eat well for only once after dialysis.

My existence is greatly affected by other people's action and in this case if the hospital owners will not be swift enough to relocate the dialysis machines inside one of the rooms where they placed the said machines in order to make way for the renovation a few years ago, it will mean some added suffering for patients like me who are just dependent on dialysis machines to extend my life. All that I can do is to painfully wait and do what I can not to experience feeling so much nausea because of extra toxin build-up which is actually making me feel sick already at this current time.

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I regret the fact that I am just truly dependent on dialysis machines and the decisions of other people in affecting my existence and I kept on worrying about it for the reason like what I am experiencing right now.