My Biggest Fear is Achieving My Dreams

MY BIGGEST FEAR

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Fear is a strong, uncontrollable feeling caused by a perceived threat or danger.

There are so many words that may be used to describe the word, 'fear' such as apprehension, anxiety, dread, phobia, terror and fright.

Fear is truly an uncontrollable emotion that we try so hard to fight and yet for some people, it just refuses to go away. We all have different things that we are afraid of. Some of these fears are called, 'phobia'. Phobia describes an obsessive or an unusual fear of a particular thing. For instance, there's a phobia called 'astraphobia' meaning the fear of thunder and lightning. Fears as little as this can grip anyone tightly and it becomes very difficult to let go of it. These fears dominate the thoughts of their victims and overwhelms them and sometimes, they feel its just normal.

My biggest fear is 'achieving my dreams'. Sounds funny right? Well, over the years, I have come to discover that this has become my biggest fear. When I was a teenager, my worst fear was heights but growing up, I gradually overcame that fear. As an adult who is gradually growing to become a man, I fear that I may not achieve my dreams. I fear that my wishes may not come true. I am working so hard to overcome these fears and pursue my dreams and yet I am still so scared of the future. Sometimes, I wish I could see the future clearly, it would really make things easier for me. I tend to feel like I am completely in the dark, not knowing what the future holds for me, not knowing if I'll be strong enough to reach where I have always imagined myself to be.

I discovered this was my worst fear when I graduated from the university and I had to face life as a man. It was fun at first and it seemed so easy but as time went on, I began to have more responsibilties and I felt like life was choking me. I had to work much harder to meet up with the demands of life.

This fear I have developed makes me panic unnecessarily and it brings about anxiety. I have to fight these bad thoughts everyday because it is slowly eating me up. My heart is filled with so much fear and it causes my mind to wander. I keep on asking myself different questions out of fear, I keep on wondering if I'll eventually make my parents proud. At some point in my life, I became pessimistic. My fear of the future actually pushes me to work harder but working harder hasn't stopped me from living in fear.

But I believe this fear doesn't have the power to stop me from doing what I have to do. I have made up my mind to refuse and fight these fears with all my might. I will not allow it to be my culture. So I decided to apply some strategies about a month ago. I am saying sweet things to myself. Each time those thoughts come, I say to myself, 'I will be fine'. 'Everything will be okay'. These words have encouraged me many times and deep down I know and I believe that all my fears will be gone with the wind and I'll be where I want to be!

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