HEARTBREAK ON THE HOMESTEAD

in homesteading •  6 years ago  (edited)

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The worst part about homesteading is losing animals. I hate it. It is so traumatic it always make me question - briefly - why we keep animals. But the saying goes: better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. My goats are so much a part of the family and they give so much that I suppose I will always have them, always love them, and always deal with the heartache of losing them when the time comes. This weekend my gentle Hadar died.

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Hadar was the reigning matriach. She one one of my most loveable goats. She could stand with her head on your shoulder, eyes closed for as long as you were prepared to cuddle and kiss her. Or until another goat dared get to close then she would whip around and send the precocious subordinate packing! As goats generally are, Hadar was a wonderful mother. Her very first babies were triplet boys and her very last babies, born last month, were triplet boys. In between she has only ever had boys so sadly there is no legacy to continue her line except the memory of her gentle nature.

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Hadar was one of my best milkers. Ever. She gave a comfortable 5 to 6 litres a day. That's a lot although my Saanens average 3 to 4 litres daily. Her name - Hadar - means Glory. And she really was a glorious goat.

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Hadar is one of two goats who were due to retire this year. What to do with the older animals is always a dilemma for me. Last week she suddenly became partially mastitic. My natural remedies usually cure ailments very quickly. I even resorted to medical treatment. But she declined so rapidly that I was shocked when she died after only a couple days. So while I am sharing the different goat lessons with those considering having their own precious goats here's an adendum: Be prepared to cry many tears when you lose the goats. And you will. Although hopefully only of a good old age. I do not know if the infection killed her as she was already older or if her age brought on the infection. There is still plenty I do not understand about goats but if you have missed out on what I can share follow Lessons 1 and 2
https://steemit.com/homesteading/@buckaroo/for-the-love-of-goats-lesson-2

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There are still goats to love and cuddle. We are forming relationships with adorable kids and learning about their individual personalities. Hadar and her mother Abigail were both very gentle. I loved seeing them lying together with all their growing babies around them. We said goodbye to Abi a long time ago. I knew it was coming but I wasn't prepared for Hadar's death. She will leave a hole but I have been blessed by her gentle nature and delicious milk. She is everything you look for in a goat. Hadar was a Glory!

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Just reading this brought tears to my eyes. She sounds like a hard one to lose.
How strange that she never had a baby girl.

Very hard one to lose. I have to say some are more easy to say goodbye too @minismallholding

Oh @buckaroo! I'm crying as I type this; I too grew to love your goats with every new post of yours, and now I am heartbroken for your loss. How are her latest kids doing? They all must be missing her terrible, as I sure you are too. Big hugs my friend <3

As usual, your post is of such beautiful, high quality @buckaroo; submitting to c-squared.

You really say such sweet things Lynn. Thank you for your comforting words. I've quickly re-homed her babies. They adjust quickly at least. My very first goat ever was rather obnoxious. But when we lost another goat she would seek me out for comfort. For days I could hear her crying. It was terrible. Comforting that I wasn't grieving alone but horrible to hear her sadness. Animals are really amazing


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Thank you once again @c-squared

dear homesteading mum, thank you for your vote, and after reading this blog i decided to feature you in the @PIFC, look at my blag of this afternoon.
I hope you will win,
greetz another mum,
Britt

Thank you SO MUCH @brittandjosie. I've been offline since this post so missed so many comments. You are very kind to feature me. Thank you. I am way overdue to write a post for @pifc

Sorry for your loss :( I've never developed a close bond with heard animals before but have lost my fair share of dogs and cats, I know how hard it can be.

Goats are like cats and dogs but they give you milk! Losing them is really difficult. And when you have a lot you end up saying goodbye more often than you'd like

I am so sorry you have lost your sweet lady. Losing a fuzzy butt is hard. My daughter has a farm and it is rough when death happens. I do hope you heal soon.
Ren

Thank you for your sweet words Ren

I so much agree with you! Losing an animal is the worst thing! Just as the birth of new life is the best... Been there, done that - feeling the heartbreak with you!

I found you today because @brittandjosie featured you in the Pay it Forward Curation Contest. Keep up the great work!

Thank you for you sweet comment @viking-ventures. I've been off steemit since the post so missing all the comments and features. Thanks to @brittandjosie

That is sad news, thanks for sharing! Shalom.....

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Shalom @simms50 and thank you for your kindness

oH NO, so so sorry to hear that! Gosh, I still mourn my favourite chooks from 10 years ago, can't even imagine mourning something as glorious as Hadar! xxx Is there a goat heaven?

There HAS to be! I would have many goats up there. Enjoying their heavenly green pastures although I'm sure they would still be mischievous

Headbutting clouds, stealing angel's robes and all that...

Loosing a four legged family member is hard, sorry you are in that dark place!

Remember the good times, and it will hrlp you restore a balance to you soul.

May GOD bring you peace and healing!

:'(

Thank you for your compassion @smithlabs

@bukaroo Thank you for the window into a four legged family member! I look at goats differently now, she was so obviously a sweet girl!

I use Colloidal silver on my Dachshunds for infections, should work on goats too. I use 500 PPM silver.

:'(

Thanks @smithlabs colloidal silver is amazing (have you heard of colloidal gold?) I use it a lot, although more the colloidal silver gel for wounds and burns or stings. The infection was in her udder. I did "inject" there but to no avail. I suspect because of her age she couldn't cope with the infection

Age gets us all eventually, I use it systemically (by mouth) and it will work unless it is a virus. I trust it a lot.

I have not heard of the gold, what is the advantage?

I sometimes use comfrey tincture for painful areas, and it seem to penetrate well and will help kill infection by healing past it. It does wonders on Recluse bites!

I had never seen a goat snuggle before; she was obviously a happy girl!

:)

Colloidal gold is new to SA. I'm just hearing about it and curious to know what the results are. Apparently even more incredible than colloidal cold. Thanks for the comfrey tip. Do you make tincture yourself? I use the leaves - bruised - for injuries but haven't made the tincture though I'd like to

I did a three part series on how to make comfrey tincture in August. It is hard to make, but too expensive to buy, so I make it, ROFLOL!

I would be happy to walk you through it, if you decide to try. :) Here is the link to the how too:

https://steemit.com/naturalmedicine/@smithlabs/collection-of-the-how-too-posts-on-comfrey-tincture-making-for-the-naturalmedicine-story#@lturner/re-smithlabs-re-lturner-re-smithlabs-collection-of-the-how-too-posts-on-comfrey-tincture-making-for-the-naturalmedicine-story-20180813t034829719z

Just a little light reading. Let me know if you have questions.

Enjoy decocting the comfrey roots!

:D

Oh how sad! It's so heart wrenching when we have to say good-bye to our beloved animals. I'm sure there is a hole left in your herd. Sending some love to help fill the hole. Thanks for sharing those beautiful pictures - I love seeing the ones of you and your beloved goats and cute kids!

Thank you for your compassionate words @porters

So sorry to hear about your loss. Hadar sounds like a glorious matriarch indeed! This homesteading experience teaches us so much about loss... loving for a time and watching so much as it moves on. 💙

Beautifully put @mountainjewel

So sorry for your loss @buckaroo! It's very sad when one of our furry friends leaves this plane of existence... and especially when it is sudden and unexpected.

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Thank you for that kind comment

I am so sorry for your loss. Having just lost our 15 year old pug in September, the feelings are still raw. My husband and I have often considered goats, and though this is a solemn occasion to have found your blog, I will be following from now on.
Sending my condolences to you and your family and all of Hadar's little boys. <3

Thank you for your kind words @barracudadiaries. Yes a very big responsibility having "pets" whether for home or homesteading reasons

Oh no, that's so sad to hear! Sorry for your loss @buckaroo. Sounds like y'all lost a dear blessing.

She was such a blessing @nateonsteemit and a privilege to have as part of our homestead for so long

I am sorry for your loss. I only had cats, never goats... But I imagine that your pain is similar. Be strong.

PS: I have found your post because @brittandjosie featured you in her entry for the Pay It Forward Contest

Thank you for your kind words @trincowski. Goats are as much pets to me as our cats and dogs. And as you know it is sad losing pets. I've been offline since the post so thank you for reading and to @brittandjosie for the feature

howdy buckaroo- so sorry to hear about this loss but your philosophy is such a good one about it being better to have loved and she and you both gave to each other and enriched both of your lives. She was lucky to have you as her owner.

As always I can trust you for such sweet words @janton. Thank you. I love all my goats (but some more than others) Hadar was a real gem

I know she was, you were both lucky to have had each other.

Oh that is so tragic :( I am so sorry for your loss @buckaroo. No matter how big or small our furry family members are, it is still one of the hardest things to process... especially for the kiddies. hugs

@jaynie it is definitely a very hard thing to process. Thank you for your kind words

Aweee, I’m so sorry @buckaroo. Animals become so much a part of our family that when one leaves it makes just as big a whole in our hearts. I love the memories you are able to share with us though and am sure she’ll live on in her children goats. I bet if you look hard enough you might be able to see her in their personalities too.

Thank you for sharing your goats with us ❤️

Thank you for your kind words @puravidaville but we don't have any of her babies. They have only ever been boys and I have to re-home the boys as we need dairy goats and not dozens of pets (if it were up to me and not my husband we'd keep everyone!)

Oh darn, I misread that then. I think if I had a farm I’d probably try and keep all of the animals too. I can see it getting out of hand without my husband stepping in. Best wishes to you @buckaroo and I’m happy that you share your wonderful goats with us. It’s always a good read :)