Heart Broken

Sometimes, I find it really hard to believe that I fell in love with the wrong person. It's been years since we last saw and i'm still madly in love with you <isn’t that amazing?>. These past years, you’ve been all i've been able to think of, I even painted a picture of you in my head as the mother of my future kids and you didn’t help matters either, you gave me hope, you filled my head with imaginations. I have always wanted to be that guy who would stand with you in your hardest times, fight and struggle with you through thick and thin, I promised I was going to travel the world and explore in the creeks of Greece and mountain of Everest with you, I wanted you to join me in marking the trail of bliss with memories of limitless joy, I felt our love was specially designed in heaven, but alas! I was wrong, you told me you loved me whereas you never did, you lied to me, you deceived me, you stabbed me where it hurts the most, I know i'm not perfect, no one is perfect, I know I also hurt you though I never did that deliberately, I believe it’s part of the game, so I made amends, I loved you with everything I had. I thought you forgave me of my immaturity back then but no!...you left when I needed you the most, I am all alone now confused!..
Where do I start from? How do I move on?? I have never been this heartbroken my whole life. I can't help but cry out my pains whenever I remember that we promised never to leave each other, but look at us now…broken!!!
i've had sleepless nights and gloomy days all because of you, now I can't help but remember all those fun filled days when we never stopped smiling and laughing out loud,..how can I forget you and move on?? you are the only one that ever made my heart beat 10x faster. I didn’t fall in love with you because I was lonely or lost, I fell in love with you because when I saw you for the first time, it was the only time I had ever wanted to make someone a permanent part of my world.
Things are different between us now but I still love you just the same way I did when we first met and I still hope secretly that we end up together, you made my life worth living. I can't bear to think of you not being mine again. I know I can never find some who would be just like you and I know I can't possibly love anyone else, but I don't care because I won't bother searching for someone else, i'm just going to be me. I just hope you're happy though you left me when I needed you the most. I hope you'll find someone who would love you more than I do.