My Story: Khodam, inner power, and soul recognition part 2

I am no longer a naughty person (that's what people say), fighters, indiscriminate, temperamental and friends so shocked at the change, even my best friend, to cry and he did not accept my condition like that. He saw with his own eyes, when he invited me to pray Friday and coincidentally my friend did not want to, I immediately advised him to want to pray, but my friend saw someone just like me standing beside me talking with him while advising him (crazy !!!!!!!, weird).

For a long time I struggled to keep him from managing my life, and finally I was able to control it more and my peak became an independent person not controlled by khodam.
Long after the incident, exactly after I got married, I suffered from flex flex of lungs, long I cured it, and after I was declared completely recovered I entered the college of breathing. My logic is simple, breathing college can help me to recovery from my illness. And it's true, with a 3-week exercise routine, I feel healthier and more refreshed. But after entering the third month I get another peculiarity, suddenly there is a tremendous urge to get closer to God, this is strange what the relationship of breathing with worship, how more we are diligent to practice breathing drive the worship higher.

I think it's still a khodam work, but I do not think so, because his strength at that time is very small, and all his advice is still divisive and I alone decide it, not from him.
For a long time, I thought about it, and I thought that going in the right direction was wrong. Finally I live with sincere, especially in worship and more deep breathing knowledge not only from my college but through other universities.

I learned the theory and concept of breathing, I learned the concept of kundalini, chakra, aura, reiki and other techniques. I also traced the history of respiratory education in Indonesia, from college pioneers to breathing up to its fragments.

At the next level (level) after a disciple passes the ground level, we must go through the fasting and dhikr enough heavy. I am very curious about the peak of the college scholarship, therefore all the obligations that I live.

I have had fasting for 3 days, even I have finished 7 days well. Fasting is a fasting that requires people to eat and drink it only with white rice and water.
As I was exploring that level, I began to introduce the concept of the soul of reincarnation.

From here I rebelled and rejected that understanding, because I really did not believe in reincarnation. For me when people die will enter the grave and will be calculated to the end of time. Not when we die, our souls will drip into other bodies, this I reject as strongly as possible. Then I decided to leave college, and with my knowledge, I began to look for sources from respiratory schools in Indonesia. Finally I got a teacher and I studied in private.
I get a lot of enlightenment from my teacher, from about the concept of breathing, breathing strokes - both for self-defense and for treatment, even the concept of my soul I studied well.

After going through the basic and intermediate levels, I began to be taught the concept of the soul, and again I was taught a concept of reincarnation. There is a stage I must go through, which leads to the necessity to acknowledge the concept of reincarnation. I refused the understanding, and finally I had a long vacuum at college.

In going to Vakuman I experienced difficulties in my work, I experienced a condition that was uncomfortable and ended up forcing me to quit my job. In the mood, I still remember very well, when I was working suddenly I felt the room in the office was so empty and silent and I seemed to hear a voice saying, "get out of it all by learning yourself." From there, I began to learn my self-concept, by learning self-concept, I was sure I could get out of this difficulty.

Begin a stage of self-exploration in more depth and take a long time.