I spent day by day reflecting and I began studying motivational books, EQ, self concept writings on the internet and ESQ until late at night. That's where I understood the whole self concept, and invited me to study religious books more deeply that I have ignored. Not forgetting I undergo fasting Monday and Thursday and evening prayers to beg for hidayahnya.
The strange thing is when learning it all, as there is guidance from the heart and get a lot of coincidences. Like I want to learn the ESQ book, I got it from my wife who borrowed the book from my neighbor who works in a complete 2 book printing !!!
For example, when I search for something on the internet through Google by relying on my heart, I get amazing links, the Greatest of God.
All these lessons I try to practice in the face of difficulties in the office and lead me to a tremendous understanding in this life.
If I try to listen to my journey up to the current understanding actually God has given way and guidance that I know God.
When I was 21 years old, I was reminded that in my pride, there was a great and invisible force, God who created this life !!!!
Wasn't at the age of 25 I was reminded again of breathing there was an all-powerful power that controlled our own breath. Do not we can not refuse to inhale and exhale unless we are lifeless. Is not that a sign of His greatness !!!!.
Is not the situation that I think an inconvenience to the workplace is God's way so that we can get to know ourselves (soul) that leads to an understanding of our knowledge to this self-creator !!!!.
All the knowledge I get such as khodam, breathing, martial arts self-defense, self-concept, life difficulties and others is actually Hidayah from God to me so that I can return to His stages, Thank God.