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skycornish (55) · 8 years ago

Welcome to Steemit @bethyi! Stay strong and remember to just enjoy the simple things in life. I hope you find support and encouragement from the Steemit community. Maybe this website is exactly what you need to get excited about the things you love again.

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gmuxx (67) · 7 years ago

Great words, sentiment and support for @bethyi

gtg (70) · 8 years ago

Hello Beth, you will die, we will too, that's for sure but there is no reason to be in a hurry. Welcome to Steem! :-)

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proctologic (61) · 7 years ago (edited)

You are not alone. I wanted to die myself and i felt great until i relized i survived.
Im not sure if i will try again but i think i need to change my life and go into therapy. Only time will tell. Hope you change your mind. Please feel free to contact me if you need to talk
https://steemit.com/life/@proctologic/i-killed-my-car-and-it-was-awesome

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secter (52) · 7 years ago

Their are sometimes naughty spirits in existence putting thoughts in our head.. Best thing is to put your hand on your heart and smile to your thoughts.. Meditation can help transcended thought patterns.. Keep busy joyful and grateful for all the good in your life.. The heart is the key to get out our head.. Volunteering can be good..

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benjojo (70) · 7 years ago

bethyi, i don't know you, but i wanted you to know that i don't want you to die. Perhaps that has little meaning from a complete stranger. Nevertheless, i wanted you to know. Perhaps i'll be thinking I don't want you to die every time you think you do?! Maybe they will cancel out and the thought will drift away.

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whatamidoing (69) · 7 years ago

This.

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goldenroom (54) · 8 years ago

Hi Beth, my name's Bethany :D It's always weird seeing my name out in the wild so, of course, it attracted me like a fly to flame :) I hope you can find some inspiration here on Steemit. A bit of friendly sunshine to help distract you from your broken record. Care to share any of your creative side? I'd love to see what you've cooked up with the cards and scrapbooking :) I'm on a crazy doodling kick at the moment. I'm always looking for the next fun thing to create. Gets my head out of thinking about my own fun situation in life :)

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laloelectrix (51) · 7 years ago

Hello @bethyi greetings from Cologne Germany my name is Lars @laloelectrix
Welcome here at steemit maybe its good for you to be here and talk / write very interesting people to meet and stay in contact with
Just wanted to say hi #follow you now #upvoted and #resteemed so you can reach more people 😉✌

gmuxx (67) · 7 years ago

You have the support of this great community, people who genuinely care about the wellbeing of our fellow steemians. Stay strong and know that we are here for you. Depression is an often misunderstood condition - the last thing you need to hear is to cheer up and look at the bright side.

I wish you luck and I look forward to seeing your crafts and your writings on steemit

I have sent a small gift to your wallet

leosenior (42) · 8 years ago

The way you are marching ain’t bad or awful just it’s yours… few can say bout their feelings… equals lying you say whachya feel… the less lie the more truth)))

jacobtothe (70) · 7 years ago

I have not dealt with severe depression, but I have dealt with other invisible illnesses that have no effective medical treatment, and I can understand the frustration at the inability of others to understand.

All I can really offer are the same empty platitudes you have doubtless heard before, and a suggestion to find something new to do. In all seriousness, I do suggest looking for a local game store that offers an open game night for Dungeons and Dragons or another role-playing game. It's a lot better than saying "just go out and meet people," at least.

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steveitt (53) · 7 years ago

Sometimes "I want to die" actually means "I want something meaningful to live for" or "I'm way too tired". May G-d give you rest, peace, meaning.

To feel guilt once for doing wrong, and then repent of the wrong, is healthy. To constantly live in a state of guilt isn't. I sincerely wish you the best!

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swolesome (60) · 7 years ago

I've been there too. Attempted twice. Don't pretend to be happy is the best advice I can give. Find people and things you want to wake up for and surround yourself with them.
Always here to talk.

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jraysteem (60) · 8 years ago

Welcome to steemit community :)

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crowe (60) · 8 years ago

Welcome To Steemit. I am following your blog.

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happyphoenix (66) · 7 years ago

When someone feels depressed, lonely, and suffer. Yes, they usually want to leave from his world. But remember you are on steemit community, you are not alone. Just share you feeling and get positive activity and make friend with many good steemians. Yes... you are not alone. If you feel suffer... yes we also feel it., but let go through from bad time together. You are not alone, we still here to help you !:)

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xiobus (47) · 7 years ago

We are here to support you @bethyi42, please post some more to let us know you are okay.... I'm sure plenty of us will have encouragement and advice for you. HUG

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lanceman (53) · 8 years ago

Sounds like we're at the same party sweet @bethyi !

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manxu02 (33) · 7 years ago

Things come and go, so we don't wish to die just because we are going through tougher times. All it shall pass @bethyi with time because time is the healer of all wound

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lexiconical (72) · 7 years ago

Hi Beth,

It sounds like you've entered a nihilistic thought cycle. It's very tough to break! The fact is, at some point, you will need to fake it until you make it. You'll have to break out of your pattern by adding new activities and routines, and you'll hate them at first! The cliche is exercise, but it really works once you see some change! Another secret weapon I like to prescribe is Synthesia - ask me if you'd like to hear more.

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wanderwoman (42) · 7 years ago

MMM! Thank you for this post. Thank you for your honesty. I often feel like this as well. As soon as we can start talking about it we can support each other.

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isaac.rodebush (54) · 7 years ago

Hello @bethyi,

I come from a family with very challenging mental health problems. It brings me to tears at times seeing the condition of my Mom with mental health problems from the time I was a baby. That being hard enough watching other members of the family fight similar battles overcoming suicide has really brought the family together in ways that I never imagined. We have had to become stronger through all of the things we have faced. This community is much like a family in many ways working to help each other become more successful.

I know there is a God that cares for us and wants us to be happy healthy and successful. Some times we feel we get the short end of the stick. We become strengthened through the hard and heavy things we lift to makeus stronger through life to be able to help other people.

I am sure you have the ability to understand others in similar situations unparalleled to many because you have empathy and can relate to them.

Best,
Isaac

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joe28 (57) · 7 years ago

Welcome my brother

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whatamidoing (69) · 7 years ago

Life has a way of changing suddenly. Be ready for a positive change and it will come to you sooner or later. You are already here and you won't be forever so you might as well find reasons to enjoy it. There are many, I promise.

Focus on loving yourself first. Forgive yourself for everything in the past. It's done. Just focus on right now. This might sound really hard but now you have a community full of people who would be happy to help.

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bitgeek (62) · 8 years ago

Welcome to the community, Beth! Follow me at https://steemit.com/@bitgeek

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modprobe (67) · 7 years ago

Hi, Beth, and thank you for being honest. There's so little straight up honesty out there anymore. Perhaps we're all so desperate to show everyone that we're this version of our selves that actually has their sh*t together, we forget to be who we actually are? If so, we're trying to live a lie and ignore the truth, and is that life at all?

But perhaps I'm just rambling. :-) In any event, welcome, Beth, and thank you for being you, exactly as you are. And thank you for being honest about who that is, because the world could use more honestly broken people. We've already got plenty of broken people who are dishonest about it.

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steemitqa (64) · 7 years ago

welcome @bethyi to STEEMIT make yourself at home!

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stellabelle (75) · 7 years ago

I know what it's like. This helped me so much, finding James Altucher:
http://www.jamesaltucher.com/2011/08/i-want-to-die/

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http://ebooks.rahnuma.org/litrature/Paulo.Coelho/Veronika_Decides_to_Die_-_Paulo_Coelho.pdf

mammasitta (70) · 7 years ago

Nice to meet you !

I think you might like to read this book.

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bart2305 (60) · 7 years ago

Welcome to Steemit! I hope you will enjoy it as much as I do. :-)

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aclsnanarrt (25) · 7 years ago

Hi Beth. Just wanted to thank you for being so open about your feelings. The Bible says though our heart can deceive us. The Bible says in John3:16 that " for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that who so ever believeth in him , should not perrish, but have everlasting life ". God has a Wonderful plan and purpose for every individual life... including yours! The first step is seeing our need for a Savior. If u want to talk more I'm going to follow u.

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web-gnar (60) · 8 years ago

you need to eat high vibrational foods. get sunlight. get off pharmaceuticals. exercise ... whats your blood type?

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cqdx (38) · 7 years ago

People that want to die, either they have some intolerable circumstance with no quality of life or else they suffer from mental illness. You have a therapist , good start, but if the depression does not lift you need to consider that there is a physical cause for it.

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aggroed (78) · 7 years ago

Hey welcome to steemit. There's a great community here to help folks vent and share their frustrations. I hope you know you're loved and supported. Please keep some posts going so we know you're ok.

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alao (64) · 7 years ago

Thanks for not being afraid to ask for help. Life gets hard but you need to find reasons to keep moving on. Check put Logic's album specifically this song.

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iceflower (39) · 7 years ago

swolesome: "Find people and things you want to wake up for and surround yourself with them."

THIS. For the love of humanity (but especially yourself), Beth, THIS. So many people have got no earthly idea just how much this really does mean, not just for those who are suffering like you are, but for us ALL. Things that we love, to live for. Not because anyone else thinks they're important, but because we love them, and they're important to US.

It's like what happens if you drop one tiny pebble at a time into a pitcher of water. Each pebble causes a little more water to run out, till finally there's pretty much no water left. Now replace the word "water" with the word "misery." The positive things... your card-making, scrapbooking and so on... are the pebbles. Keep throwing more in as you find them, and one day you may wake up and look at your life, and find it so changed for the better that your old thoughts may begin to change also. It's like life handing you lemons, and you trading it in for a mountain of chocolate.

We need those positive things. All of us do.

Sent up a prayer for you, in any case.

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