1st Step in Steem

Hello there steemians, fellow human or maybe you're just a bot which skip reading my writings.
my name is @detoir and this is my first post in steems.

I live in Indonesia and currently a father of one healthy son.
Living my life as an IT Programmer in local insurance company and a small yet not so successful crypto trader.
Until now I'm currently struggling from my social anxiety disorder, so I hope by writing this down I could lessen it (it's even harder write this down).

Back in 2015, my office friend introduce me to a kind of digital asset which being used as a mean to store value (obviously bitcoin). I hardly doubt that, since in my professional career as a programmer, the means to store value is secured by wet signature above a contract theoritically traditional style. Not so long after this, my son was born.
Skip, skip, and more skip to late 2017.
Stagnancy in workplace, small raise in salary, wife working contract may come to end, and my family needs more income, i decided that I need changes. Then I took one big leap to buy Bitcoin. At this point of time, I feel desperate and not thinking about consequences, mainly gambling as what fate may lead me to.
Surprisingly I had my first profit. Greed and stupidity blinded me. Then I got knocked down, losses after losses.

Trying to fight my social anxiety disorder which make me hard to socialize to another human being, I tried to speak about my losses to my boss in the office. My boss was a well known forex trader in my office, although he suffer losses often (a good laughing stock when he had panic attack suffering from big losses..lol). And he gave me a special sermon for about an hour. In short, all that profit and loses were part of learning how volatile my asset is. He don't even teach me how to be a good trader, but for me to find my own path of trading. Well, all is good from his encouraging words.

And now here I am, trying to be a part of digital community as a therapy for my anxiety disorder. I hope in following years, I could still be a part of steemians.

ciao