Hi Everyone!
Here is Mariana but you can call me Mari. I live in Sao Paulo but I grew up in the countryside of the state, although the city I most lived is Santos, at the shore. I have a cat that I consider my son and some plants at my apartment where I work from.
It’s a curious “introduce yourself” text right after my arrival from abroad. Started at 15th December 2021 in Lisbon and ended up in Berlin yesterday 2th January 2022, to be more specific at 4:20 am of this morning when I landed. Curious and suggestive lol.
I can’t brief properly in couple words “how this trip was” for me ‘cause I’m still processing it. But what I can - is definitely point out - how I get to this place called Steemit. Like putting a pin on a google maps place. A snippet from my trip.
Since 2017 I did not put my feet aside in the world. The reasons are that obvious equation: getting a job, pandemics, saving money, moving home etc. Or just because we convince ourselves that a great opportunity will still come but not now regarding finances and friends up to jump into this with you. Well, it happened that my brazilian friends can’t afford a large trip of that in euros still and I was desperate to leave to other countries so I jump into someone’s travelling plan.
This person was not my friend, was a colleague that I only had talk before on social media. He followed me in couple different times and in different platforms. We decided to meet each other in November and there it goes: he spoke about getting this ticket flight to Europe and I was: - WOW! That’s awesome cause I could go with you :D
Yes. I offered myself in someone’s plan that I barely know. Just to clarify:
- I do this often? No.
- I was drunk? No
- I felt confortable doing this? Yes
- Did I felt some risk/ awkard vibe of meeting a person during a trip could hit me and as the travel itself? No
So, the only thing I knew it in this moment was the confort zone I created in my head to concretize my wanderlust. My tip nowadays is: go alone if you don’t want to hurt anybody else - and that’s includes YOU primarily.
Most of my problems used to be attached to my lack of experience on something. I consider myself an amateur or really immature for a bunch of stuffs. Relationships for example: I don’t like to discuss it much. It’s easy for me to runnaway from this kind of talk when I’m dating someone or when some of my friends got disappointed with me and vice versa. My strategy is always “let’s just be apart for a while until we forget this silly shit.” It can be 10 min, 1 day or months. Depends on how my vibe fits so much with this person. I don’t want to pass months like that if we are attached to each other in some deeper level and honestly, it doesn’t need to be in terms of time we know each other. There are people that I can connect really quickly in an afternoon and there are others I would never get it why they came into my life.
This colleague of travel is this example. We discussed the entire trip while we were together and I was trying to keep the vibe ok but he seemed not wanting me around so I started to make my own travel tours. Suddenly he was again asking me why I disappeared, why I’m doing this and that – and I started entering on a mental mode like “should I’ve stay or should I’ve go? – and no matter how many times I asked him “what’s happening? You are very rude with me since yesterday” they will be all an opportunity to this person throw all my flaws on my face as a machine gun. I was feeling depressed in Barcelona right in front of the magic Gaudi’s church La Sagrada Familia, tears on my face. Not happy at all – something was really not okay. That’s not the state of mind someone’s deserve specially in a trip.
The good point it’s when I was visiting museums and hanging around by myself It was such good moments, I was feeling free and relieved, To finally be myself without judgements, guilty or anything. Light as a bird. And I met nice people. They came to me and that’s crazy cause I barely did efforts. Maybe I was surrounded by negative thinking and that was blocking me from people that matters in my journey One of them introduced me Steemit and so many other stuffs that I feel so rich and lucky, how can a trip be only about places? It’s about people!
We separated in the final part of the trip. I don’t have more news about him. Don’t feel for asking him since he said he doesn’t want my friendship at Christma’s evening. I also get dinner by myself earlier from this happening and invited him. He refused.
I wish I could have a little cabin where you enter with someone after putting some changes and play the vibe selector mode. Who will match with the vibration you throw in the world?
I know some names. I hope we can get tripping together no matter the ways. Life is a mental estate.
Nice people are RARE Keep them near YOU
Thank you all for the time reading this :)
Warmth,
Mari
