HOW TO READ

Hey i am MEEK!

(Obviously you very well know how to read, but this section explains how to differently read and interpret what i write)

1. Normally written text (outside brackets) on this post is what i write assuming as if i am talking to somebody and speaking the exact written words.

2. The text written in brackets (like this, and some other examples like above in this post's title) is what i think to myself and doesn't want to speak out (but still he does what a jerk).

WHAT SORT OF FELLA ARE YOU MEEK?

I TALK TO MYSELF MORE THAN I TALK TO ANYONE ELSE….

……I CRITICIZE MYSELF MORE THAN I CRITICIZE ANYONE ELSE.

Since my childhood (i am currently 17) i believe i have a problem of thinking a lot and talking to myself. Not the normal talking, rather the cold self criticized talking and thinking. For instance check out the title of this post, i was thinking that 'Meek Journals #1 - Introduction' would be a good title for this post but while i was typing this my inner voice was constantly yelling (You are stupid, this is such a conventional start. Think of something new and different ) and me rather than ignoring it, typed it. And this is what exactly i do here on this series, I type stuff and while doing so rather than ignoring my own critic-voice i write it here in exact same form. And yea, just to mention, I am Socially very awkward and an introvert. Plus i am a boring person in reality. I don't have money to travel much. I haven't ever stepped out of my underdeveloped but overpopulated nation. (yea you guessed it right) I currently don't have any girlfriend. I play football but am not any good in it. BUT i can do maths, physics and chemistry quite well. (He is a total boring nerd who likes anime and can't stop playing open world games like skyrim and fallout. SUCH A LOOSER)

WHY IS YOUR WRITING STYLE SO ‘UNPROFESSIONAL’ MEEK?

Well, think of it.. if i could seriously write professionally plotted paragraphs wouldn’t I be rather writing novels than writing stuff here ?

*joke*

(I bet that’s not funny to anyone at all, shut up Meek and keep your poorly forged jokes to yourself)

ok, alright. I can write seriously and so called ‘professionally’ but that would neither be fun for me to write nor for you to read! (who likes reading dry newspaper language? I don’t … No offence to anyone who does).

You would probably never find me using fancy English words (if there are any, you bet it’s meaning and spelling must’ve been googled twice by this meek guy)

WHAT DO I WRITE? WHY READ WHAT I WRITE?

In my daily life i have several awkward interactions with myself and with others while which my stupid inner-voice never stops screaming at me (I'm not stupid -_- You are stupid, you dumba**) or others. So i believe it would be fun for others to read my journal of these encounters.

(Stupid guy can't think anymore)

Oh! and it's a fashion to post pictures in midst of blogs to make it interesting right? Here, this is what i was eating while thinking of writing this post. It's called 'pani puri' or 'Gol gappe' in my nation. Surely try eating them, you would've probably never eaten anything that tastes like it! You will learn a new taste xD.