Diary of a Depressed Mom

INTRODUCTION

So it seems I missed a pretty big part of this whole blogging thing and didnt introduce myself so here it is!!

My name is Christi, I'm a 36 year old mom of two girls, seriously committed but probably never married, animal lover, nerd (and have been since before it was a cool trendy thing) and enthustiastic hobbiest who rarely finishes anything I've started!
I have always and will always suffer from depression and anxiety and part of coping has always been writing so after a friend told me about this site I decided to start writing again in hopes of reaching, teaching and soothing myself. So far its been fantastic!

Alittle background seems appropriate since I will be writing alot about myself everyday,
I had a weird childhood, I was adopted by the man who I will never think of in anyway but my dad, and grew up in a very small amish town in the fields of Indiana. I grew up with both parents and a little brother and wasnt exacly the type that fit in, I always felt different, as far back as I can remember I remember always being sad, but I never really understood what was going on til much later on in life.
I left school ( I didn't really have a choice) and went to several schools for 'troubled' children at 13 and by the time I was 17 I was in Honduras teaching English and Art to kids up to 6th grade in a bilingual school in a tiny town in the mountains.
After a failed marraige I had to go crawling back home (with a 2 year old in tote) and life kinda went downhill from there.
I was working 3 jobs and not taking very good care of myself when I had my nervous breakdown, my parents then took my daughter from me and my life went completely down the shitter.
I bounced from relationship to relationship, house to house, state to state until I finally met the love of my life, Andrew. Through our relationship in the past 5 years, I have not only kept a steady job, been off my medication, and had alot of fun finally getting out and experiencing life and socializing but I also got the one thing I had been waiting a long time for.... my daughter Lilly and a second chance at being a mom, and this time I plan on being a great one ;)
With the responsibility of a newborn and household also comes the concern of post partum depression and all of my demons rising up again, hence the opening of the blog.

I hope that through my writing people can understand the struggle myself and other go through on a daily basis, reach out and help others who suffer, and entertain the world with my stories!!