My dream, from addict to writer.

in introduceyourself •  7 years ago 

Hello Steemit,

This is me.

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I know, you must be jealous. I'm sure you haven't seen such a fine looking man in a very long time.

Now that I've got a little bit of your attention, let me tell you a little bit about myself.

My name is Stef. I'm 23 years old and I currently live in the Netherlands.

For most of my life I've been an addict. Looking back, the first time I noticed this behavior in myself was with playing video games. Later I started drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes. When I turned 19 my kryptonite was added to that list, weed.

Despite being granted with an excellent brain to study, I quit 2 studies in less than a year time. I couldn't be bothered studying. I didn't envision myself doing these kind of jobs in the future. I hardly even saw myself getting out of bed the next morning.

I started avoiding some of my best friends, the people who wanted the best for me. I rationalized this away by saying that I didn't need these people in my life, but in reality I was only running away from confrontation. I hurt a lot of people in the progress. I was a shitty ass friend and an even worse lover.

Somehow I always thought that happiness and love were things I could get from other people or things, but nothing could have been further from the truth.

Since I had nowhere else to go I went to travel. I started meditating and got interested in personal development. I met amazing people and saw beautiful places, but nothing compared to the 12-day silent meditation retreat I did in Thailand. I had nowhere to run anymore. I had no one left to blame. It was horrifying and painful, but finally after all these years I felt alive! And I was ready to show it.

I discovered my love for spirituality, personal development and writing. I told myself I wanted to become successful and keep travelling the world.

But when I returned home I hit a wall. In no time I returned to my shitty habits and old life style. I thought after realizing all of this it would be easy to change my life, but it wasn't. It made my life even harder. It made the downs deeper, but it also made the ups a lot higher.

I felt like I was making real progress despite my addictive behaviors. I even managed to quit smoking weed for a while, but at the end of 2017 I realized I'd been lying to myself. I felt like I wasn't an inch closer to actually living my dreams. I had a lot of ideas and I gained a lot of knowledge on living a dream life, but again I was just dreaming. It wasn't tangible. I didn't put my words into action. I just keep fooling myself at every step.

Again, I have nowhere to run anymore, nowhere to hide. My dream is to become a writer and Steemit seems like a brilliant place to start. I'm done fooling myself. I want to make my dreams a reality and this time I'm not quitting.

Thank you for reading!

Suggestions and support are very appreciated.

With all the love and gratitude,

Stef.

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Im party of a community that helps new members, that helps former and struggle addicts, and I would love to have you join us even if it’s just to say hello :)

Welcome - Steemit is definitely a great place for writing! Maybe you can share some stories from your addictions to help others who might be at that stage atm! Greets!

Thank you. As your username suggests you are very welcoming. I was definitely planning to write about my addictions and other personal developments. I've loads of great stories and thoughts I want to share. But even more importantly, I hope to help the people that are going through the same kind of struggles.

Nice to meet you @seewithsteve🙃
Welcome to Steemit!
Try to get a profile picture!
Take one from Instagram using my post:
https://steemit.com/steemit/@heiner/how-to-use-a-steemit-profile-picture-from-instagram

Thanks man! I'll make sure to get one right away. It didn't seem to be one of my priorities at first. Thanks for the Instagram tip, I already have a wonderful picture in mind.

welcome to steemit, followed and upvoted!

welcome in the community :)

hello and welcome @seewithsteve~~

haha you have to make that funny photo of you your profile picture its hilarious, I see you don’t have a Steemit Profile Picture I made a contest post to make it simple to do just scroll down Here
Also here is another contest I have going on Here

That picture!

Steemit is a great place to start writing - one just needs to decide, plan and do. All the best here.

Thank you man. You're right. I was thinking about a 100 words a day kind of challenge. I'm not too sure yet.
At the moment I'm trying to think of a series which I can post regularly.

Bonjour my friend! I also want to be able to write. You can also leave me some advice if you like ;D

Hello my Belgian friend. I checked out your profile. Keep up the good work brother. I like the ideas you've been putting out. Keep drawing, posting and improving! I'll definitely keep an eye on you. And if you're thinking about writing, here's my advice. Write from your heart. Write with passion and honesty. People tend to love this. The skills necessary for writing will come with every word you write :)

Welcome to steemit and I suggest you realize how awesome you are! You’ve come a long way and I hope you continue your journey here with us! :)

Thanks Elizabeth! That means a lot to me. Thank you for hitting me up with the MSP3K community. I'll make sure to drop by and share some of my words!

Keep on writing! Just Be 🙏

Hi Stef, and welcome :) Thanks for sharing your story. I relate to a lot of what you've been through, and I want to wish you all the best in your journey. I'm looking forward to reading your work!

Hello Stef . Welcome to steemit family. Keep sharing your story with us :)
Cheers..!!!

You are welcomed Stef.. I hope for you luck and success

Thank you dear Samir. I wish you blessings on your journey as well my brother.

Stef, what a beautifull picture you have made there! I advise you all to keep an eye on this awesome guy :D #bromads